Determined

(though some call it 'stubborn' )

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday to review my withdrawal from these drugs I have been on for 16+ years........ (the one with the horrific withdrawal symptoms).  I described the headaches, the nausea, the aching body, the anxiety.  He suggested I might want to slow down the process....... to which I answered "no bloody way!!  I want this drug out of my body!"  The doctor turned and smiled at me "You're quite determined aren't you?"

Over the time I was with him... he repeated more than once how determined I was and how pleased he was that I was that determined.  He made me promise to call him if the withdrawal symptoms got a bit more than I could handle.... (and he gave me another appointment in 8 weeks )

I brought up how Sir Steve asked me to marry him... the doctor was sincerely happy for me.......... but I explained I was insecure about it... that I am SO much older than he is... and I worry that I'm not good enough/too old for him........ the doctor looked me straight in the eye and told me that I was wrong and that I was not old in spirit ... that my attitude was not old... that I was a 'good catch' (so to speak)  I said 'ok then -- let's keep this old body working for a long long time!!'  and the doctor laughed and said "I like your attitude!!  We'll do that - together!"

I left his office feeling supported .... and heard .......... and with a spring in my step.  I CAN do this drug withdrawal!  I can get my body healthier.  I can live a long happy healthy life with my Sir Steve.  

Life is good when you're determined