Thursday, January 31, 2013

School humour???

On Tuesday morning we pulled out (as is our custom) our markers for the kids to colour.  I pride myself on being organised - so my markers are not plunked into old tin cans - I have wonderful marker holders............... 

sort of like this..............

On Tuesday afternoon the stand and markers disappeared.

Yesterday morning I decided to ask the school staff if someone had seen them (borrowed them) BUT ... I didn't want to be blunt so I wrote this quick note about the markers being 'kidnapped' and asking the 'kidnappers' to please contact me.

Yesterday at noon - there was a note in my mail box..........

It demanded 3 cups of coffee with sugar and muffins be delivered to the main office by 9:00 this morning.  Someone (or more than one someone) had taken a whole lot of time to print out the ransom note so that it looked pretty much like the picture.  I couldn't stop laughing.  I showed my staff who shared my laughter.

I wrote an answer back to the "kidnappers" saying I wanted pictorial proof that the markers were alive and well.  IF I got the proof I would follow their demands.

It's all very silly - I know - but in a funny way the staff involved in this joke are showing me that they are there for me............. at least that's how it feels............. and that's a very good feeling :)  


ok so I told W that story last night (on Skype) .... and he just sat there shaking his head - so maybe it's a kind of  " you should have been there" story........ 

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

The Truth about Teachers


1.You get a secret thrill out of laminating things.

2.You can hear 25 voices behind you and know exactly which one belongs to the child out of line.

3.You walk into a store and hear the words, “It’s Ms./Mr. ____________ and know you have been spotted.

4.You have 25 people who accidentally call you Mom/Dad at one time or another.

5.You can eat a multi-course meal in under 25 minutes.

6.You’ve trained yourself to go to the bathroom at two distinct times of the day, lunch and planning period.

7.You start saving other people’s trash, because most likely, you can use that toilet paper tube or plastic butter tub for something in the classroom.

8.You believe the Teacher’s Lounge should be equipped with a margarita machine.

9.You want to slap the next person who says, “Must be nice to work 7 to 3 and have summers off”.

10.You believe chocolate is a food group.

11.You can tell if it’s a full moon without ever looking outside.

12. You believe that unspeakable evils will befall you if anyone says, “Boy, the kids are sure mellow today.”

13.You feel the urge to talk to strange children and correct their behavior when you are out in public.

14.You believe in aerial spraying of Ritalin.

15.You think caffeine should be available in intravenous form.

16.You spend more money on school stuff than you do on your own children.

17.You can’t pass the school supply aisle without getting at least 5 items!

18. You ask your friends to use their words and explain if the left hand turn he made was a “good choice” or “bad choice.”

19.You find true beauty in a can full of perfectly sharpened pencils.

20. You are secretly addicted to hand sanitizer.

21.You understand, instantaneously, why a child behaves in a certain way after meeting his/her parents.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Another Monday Morning

Another Monday morning in a long line of Monday mornings.  This Monday morning I am trying very hard to see the bright sunshine (figuratively)

I had the test done on Friday afternoon. W was with me. (thank god for this man who holds my hand and is my ROCK)   The technician was very forth coming (thank god) and told me she had found something.  She told me she would put the report on the doctor's desk for Monday morning (the joys of paying for the test and having it done in the same practice as my doctor - versus having it done at the hospital - where I would wait 2 - 3 months just to have the test done .......... AND then have to wait another 2 - 4 weeks to get the results)

The doctor may decide to do a more intensive biopsy - in the hospital under anesthetic.  Or she may decide - shrug - I honestly don't know what else she may decide.

It could be precancerous cells - OR it could be cancer.  I have read every damn thing I can get my hands on re uterine cancer.  For the most part it is positive.  Survival rate at 5 years is 87% ......... of course the risk of getting uterine cancer is only 10%

So today I wait for the doctor to call and tell me what happens now.  

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Biopsy Report

My biopsy report was "inconclusive"

I have more tests tomorrow afternoon.

How cold is it?

I'll post an update from the doctor's visit - good bad or indifferent - later today.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

One week later

W is coming down this afternoon.
Tomorrow is the appointment with the doctor to get the biopsy results.

I realized sometime yesterday that I need to hear it from the doctor's mouth - that everything is ok.  The nurse's reassurance was like a band-aid - it held me together for a few days.  Now I want to know what is wrong with me ! 

Monday, January 21, 2013


Happy Monday morning............. so whatcha do all weekend???

wanna know what I did ?? huh huh?? do ya??? 

Over Christmas - with the thought of a new kitchen........ and some new recipes that W sent me via email (yeah yeah we were in the same house - what can I tell you?!) I started toying with where to put all my recipe books.. binders and loose sheets of recipes.

As I was sitting there reading these new recipes -  a memory flooded back - of a friend who had a desk in her kitchen with a computer (long before the days of multiple computers and gadgets) and she kept all her recipes on it.  When she wanted to bake/cook she just opened up her computer and got started. 

It was a light bulb moment.  I have this little notebook that I take to W's - but I also have a desk top .................and truthfully when I am living with W I don't see much reason to have the notebook.   

So I opened a new file on the hard drive of my lil netbook - called it "recipes" and was set to go.  (ok ok not set to go - but ready to set it up with all my recipes).  I figured the netbook will find a special spot in the new kitchen and I will no longer be rummaging through stacks of recipe books (and I do mean STACKS) as well as binders of family recipes - and loose sheets of recipes torn out of magazines.

Saturday I was busy cleaning the house and having clients through and then napping....... don't ask - I was exhausted !!  

Sunday dawned snowy and cold with horrific winds.  A good day to stay put - and watch all my taped television shows.  About mid way through a snow squall that was worrisome (I hate dark storms) I got up and dragged all the recipes - books and loose papers and binders - into the living room and started copying each and every one of them into the new file "recipes".  I made different files - chicken - breakfasts - casseroles - desserts - well you get the idea. I typed for hours.  Now I have all the family favourites and some new ones as well - neatly typed and catagorized on the netbook.  

Today is garbage day..............All the old books and papers will go out to the garbage. One less pile of junk to move to Kingston.   Everything is safe on the hard drive,  Oh don't panic!!  Once I had it all done - I copied the whole thing to my external hard drive as well.  All well protected from computer crashes and other devious computer problems.

I am even working on some sort of program that will allow me to plunk in shopping supplies based on my recipes - so I am never missing anything.  Did I ever mention I am a little OCD???
 ( cheeky grin)

And that's how I spent my weekend.  Not very BDSMy but - sadly -  my life these days doesn't seem to involve a whole lot of anything resembling BDSM.............

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Untitled - UPDATED

I just heard from the doctor's office.  They have cancelled my appointment for tomorrow.  I totally broke down on the phone with the nurse.  I told her I  have been waiting for over a month for a biopsy report.  She immediately told me to breath.  She said she didn't have any access to my file - BUT - she did say - IF it had been cancer the lab would have called the doctor immediately (translated before Christmas) and the doctor would have called me immediately.  She told  me twice to breath and not to worry.......... 

So I called W and he (thank god) wasn't too far down the highway - and told him to turn around.  The appointment is next Thursday.  

I am breathing........ again........ I have felt like I have been "waiting to exhale" since December 11th,

It has been a very long month - waiting for the results from my biopsy.  Tomorrow at noon time I will be seeing the doctor for those results.  Tonight W is driving down so he can be with me.

I have tried very hard to keep a positive outlook - I gave up totally about a week ago.  I have been reading everything I can get my hands on on cancer of the uterus and hysterectomies.  I have checked into my long term insurance.  I have cried an ocean of tears.

I will post an update as soon as I can............ 

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Final Edition

Well I got the pictures of the kitchen completed last evening from W.

I am very pleased and excited to get in there and start cooking............. but patience is a virtue right???

Here is the kitchen when W moved in...............................

And here is the final product......................... 


Monday, January 14, 2013

Bad luck

Right now truthfully I am feeling like - if it weren't for bad luck - I'd have no luck at all

So..... as we all know - I am trying (desperately) to sell my lil home.  That means it has to be in tip top shape all the time - in case - IN CASE - someone wants to view it.

The last folks who were in a week ago - told me the bathroom in the basement had a leaky shower head.  (like I would know that ! considering I never EVER use it) - my agent told me "no big deal - just replace the washer".

So Friday evening I ran into the local hardware and picked up some special washer I needed for the shower head..... came home and changed it.  The shower head still leaked.  So I figured turn the tap on and off again and make sure it was firmly shut off.  I turn it on............ go to turn it off ........ and the turning thing turned and turned and turned and didn't shut the water off at ALL!!!  So now I have a shower running that won't shut off AND another set of clients coming through the house on Saturday.  I did the smart thing (at least I thought it was smart) I shut the water off to the bathroom.

The clients came through on Saturday said they loved the house - but as with everyone else who "loved" the house - haven't heard a word from them since.  Anyway - after they left I made a meatloaf - a nice salad - and decided to have potatoes.  I put the potatoes in a plastic bowl in the microwave.  After 8 minutes I checked and they weren't done - so I put them in for another 7 minutes.  

I don't know how long it went - but suddenly I have sirens going off in the house and smoke pouring out of the kitchen.  I ran to the microwave - opened the door to find a totally melted smouldering bowl of - god only knows - potatoes and melted plastic.  The alarm was screaming - I threw open the kitchen window - just as the alarm company called me.  I explained what had happened  - said everything was out - and I didn't need the fire department.  Oh yeah I forgot to tell you - I had thrown the stupid bowl on the counter - cause there were dishes in the sink.

Once the alarm had stopped and the smoke was dissipating I threw some meatloaf and salad on my plate and went to eat dinner.  The mess could wait!

When I went back the smell of melted plastic was still VERY strong in the kitchen.  I picked the bowl up ................. and.............. it had continued to smolder while it sat on my kitchen counter and had burned a rather nasty big spot on the wood counter top.  I touched it and was shocked how hot it still was.  I went under the cabinet to see if it had burned all the way through.  I couldn't see any marks but put my hand up to the underside to feel around - and oh my god !!  it was burning hot!!  Now I felt sick and scared.  Should I call the fire department - call the alarm company?? Was the fire smoldering ???? 

I stood there putting very wet cold clothes on the burn mark - filled the sink up with freezing cold water (no I don't know why I did that) and finally the heat dissipated.  BUT I can tell you I didn't sleep very well Saturday night - imagining the smoke alarm going off again - and my whole kitchen on fire.


Today I am left with a shower that doesn't work in the basement and a burned kitchen counter AND a lil house I really DO want to sell.............. and feeling so small and alone and wishing I could just pack up and move to W and have someone to take care of me.  

Like I said - if it weren't for bad luck - I'd have no luck at all. 


Saturday, January 12, 2013

AND life goes on.............

The kitchen renovations continue.............

Just to remind you all............. this is how the kitchen looked after demo............

Here is the new paint colour 

Here are the old cabinets....... 

And here are the new cabinets - on both sides of the kitchen........... (the old kitchen did not have any cabinets on one side !!!  go figure!!) 

W tells me that there are some small tweaks that have to be made - like the shelves you can see at the end of the cabinets have been removed and taken back to the shop to have a cap put on the rough edge...... the wrong  shelves for the BIG pantry (by the fridge) were sent - so they went back to the shop and hopefully the new ones will be in next week.........there's still one cabinet door missing and the electrician has to come in and re-install the fan over the stove - and the lighting under the cabinets..

I honestly can't believe the difference the renovations have made - just the paint has made a HUGE difference.  The old paint colour (which I didn't mind) seems very bland compared to the colour that W chose.  

Honestly other than saying I wanted bamboo cabinets - W has made all the choices and worked closely with the designer.  He gets full credit for how wonderful the new kitchen looks!!  I can NOT wait to move in and start cooking - it will be such a pleasure to be "barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen"  (cheeky grin)

Wednesday, January 09, 2013


In ten days I will get my biopsy results.  My stomach has been in knots since I got home from Kingston.  It's more than stomach knots - my body is cold - I run home between shifts and lock the door - like I am gonna lock the fear outside - stupid me!  My muscles are tight and tensed - my blood pressure is elevated - I can barely eat - I cry at the slightest thing.  oh yeah - I am living in fear.

AND I am angry - life is finally turning around for me - and now this!!!???  It makes me bloody angry............... 

I have tried all the tricks to cope with this fear - and nothing is working - nothing! 

I just have to hang on for 10 days and hope that whatever comes I will find the strength to deal with it 

Tuesday, January 08, 2013


Mondays are not normally my favourite day of the week............ BUT .......... a Monday after a two week holiday makes for a horrible awful really bad day !!!

Yesterday was no exception.  I spent the entire two weeks of my holiday staying up late and sleeping late (well 7:30a.m. is late for me!!)  

Sunday night I had trouble getting to sleep - usually I am out like a light by 9:30 - Sunday I was still wide awake at 10:30 ............ sooooooooooooo when the alarm went off at 5 a.m. I never heard it.  I finally came to wondering who was whispering in my bedroom at 5:55 - it took a few minutes to register that the whispering was my damn alarm clock trying to wake me up !!

I have never showered or dressed - or drove so fast - in my entire life !!!  making it to school just 10 minutes late. 

Thank god my day at work went ok - cause everything else I touched didn't go ok at all......... like trying to "descale" the damn coffee machine.  I hadn't managed to squeeze in a coffee before work - and when I tried later in the morning it told me I had to "descale".  The book said it took 20 minutes - ok I could hang on for 20 minutes for a cup of coffee............. only thing is... it took over an hour to cycle through the entire descaling process............ and by then it was time to head back to work.

By 6 when I finally got home I had such a headache !!!  and I knew it was from a lack of caffeine.............. 

This morning I am sitting here quietly - waking up with a good cup of coffee beside me...... things should go better today ............... after all - it's not Monday after a two week break !!!

Monday, January 07, 2013

A Day Late

And a dollar short................ 

BUT hey it is Monday ............ so it all fits................


Sunday, January 06, 2013

Sunday Morning Thoughts

It's early Sunday morning - I am home and alone - and is often the case when I am alone my mind wanders all over the place............. 

I know I should be putting up a cartoon this morning - but the rambling voices in my head are loud - and I really do need to organise them - give them a bit of a voice - and one day soon look at them in more detail................ 

I have just spent the last 10 days in Kingston.  It was an introduction to retired life with W.

Good feature - I can't smoke in the house - and I found it easier and easier to NOT go outside to smoke - which cut way back on my smoking........... 

It still feels an awful lot like it is HIS house - HIS food - His everything........ (and yeah I know this will probably hurt him or anger him a little bit - but it is what it is) 

We only played once........... and I was a little sad about that - BUT - we seldom seem to play much over the holidays - it's as though there is so much else going on there is no time for play.  Also there is this whole health issue with me - which is making play time not as pleasurable as it should be.

There was a lot more interaction with the Kink community (for me) this visit.  And I tend to listen a whole lot more than I talk - which gives me an insight to the people I am getting to know............. 

I wonder about the dynamics in this community..... there seems to be a whole lot of complaining (observations??) about an Alpha Male Dom - the people we seem to associate with have strong opinions of this Dom........ and I wonder why no one has spoken up - spoken out - publicly - rather than this whispering in closed groups.  (In all honesty I have met this Alpha Dom character many times and he did set off warning bells in my head - long before I heard any of the negative comments about him.  And I have observed the way he interacts with submissives - which is my biggest - loudest - warning bell)

There seems to be the same competitiveness between the Doms - group leaders - in Kingston as there is here.  BUT it is such a small town - I think they will land up dividing their community into small fractured groups - that don't / won't talk to each other....... and for folks like W and I - make it difficult - uncomfortable - to belong to more than one group............ despite all the postulating that it doesn't matter which group functions you attend.

Currently there is a small amount of pressure for me to form a submissive group ........ NOW.  I keep saying it is something I will consider but when I actually MOVE to Kingston.  Some are not content with that - saying it should start now to protect the innocent newbies from monsters under the bed.  AND there is one group in particular who want me to start this group under their umbrella.  Now as much as I believe there are way too many groups in general in Kingston - I do believe that a submissive group should not be affiliated with any major group - but stand alone so that submissives from all the major groups will feel free to join if they so wish.

I have been thinking once I move to Kingston - everything will be fixed.  Well by everything I mean my sense of belonging - my feeling like I have come home.... my need to be settled in one city with the man I love.  But in having a conversation with some folks this past 10 days - I said "I will be glad when I don't have one foot in each city"............ BUT realize that as long as my children and grandchildren are here I will always have one foot in each city.  

And I realize this Sunday morning that I am home again and starting back to work for the last 6 months........ and find myself grinding my teeth - straining against the reigns that tie me down............. and worrying about the sale of the house (which I hardly thought about the whole time I was in Kingston!!)  And worrying about the diagnosis I am going to get on the 18th of the month............. worrying what lies ahead of me - if anything............ 

So those are the thoughts rolling around in my addled brain - things I will need to pull out one by one and look at much more closely in the near feature......... but for now - hopefully - just putting them down on paper (so to speak) will make living with them that much easier.  

Thursday, January 03, 2013

2013 The Start

Start of renovations that is.................. 

Here is the kitchen we bought.............. 

And here it is today  - after an hour of demo......................... 

Next week - god willing and the creek don't rise (as my father used to say) the new kitchen will be installed.  In the meantime the painters will patching and painting  - I will be cooking in the living room in the microwave and toaster oven and washing up in the laundry room in the basement.  

Life is such an adventure !!! 

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Happy New Year

Seriously - May the New Year bring you peace, love and harmony.

Popular Posts