School is looming on the horizon....... and a new normal for me. AND I am stressing (what else is new!)
I'm not sure too many people will understand ............
School starts (for us) in a week or so - who knows - no one will tell us the exact date the lil one will start......... hell our board still does not have a plan for distance learning... will it be a virtual school or will they live stream each class for the kiddies working from home. Personally I prefer the live streaming - and before anyone jumps all over me for putting more work on the teachers - I am a retired teacher and believe it could and would work well !!!
I haven't slept properly in over a week now....... trying to sort things out in my head... trying to figure out how things will work now the lil one will be home with us (really me) 5 days a week.
Where will she work ?? Originally I thought at the kitchen table... but then how do I work in the kitchen without distracting her?? Soooooooo make some adjustments and move her to her bedroom to work........
Cleaning the house - gonna have to do it on her schedule now - can't exactly be vacuuming while she's trying to listen to a teacher right?
My appointments - Sir Steve will have to work from home I guess when I have dental appointments (or any appointment for that matter)
Groceries and messages (that I always did first thing in the morning when I had energy and the shops weren't crowded) will now have to be done on Fridays after 3
My hair appointments - can't bring the lil one with me... will have to see if I can change my set time from Fridays at 11 to Fridays at 4
and I have to give up my Fridays - which were always MY day. I would put the lil one on the school bus and then the day was mine - for showers and shaving and pampering and manicures ..... anything I wanted to do......... those days are gone now.
and my rest/nap time - every day I used to lie on the sofa and relax - some days I napped some days I just relaxed before I met the school bus... that hour of each day which was mine will be gone now.
How does this new normal affect the mother? Not one bit! She will get her mother to pick up every Friday at 2:30 and drop off every Monday by 8am - just like normal.
How will this new normal affect Sir Steve? Not much.... he'll leave for work in the morning as usual and come home at 5 as usual - except for the odd day when he will have to work from home - really no change.
When I came into this relationship I came with my eyes open - fully aware I would have a small kiddie in my life again. I thought I had covered all the possible problems that could arise... thought I had covered everything........ no way I could have seen a pandemic that would drastically change my life and my routines...... no way!!!
I'm tired you know.......... very tired. I asked Sir Steve if he couldn't juggle the schedule and get me a week by myself before school starts...... let the mother take care of her own child so I can try and get myself under control. I can have that week IF the Board/school doesn't insist on her starting on the 11th........... if they do I will get 3 days - only 3 days. Everyone just figures I will handle it..... that I am strong and will manage. BUT ya know - I am not sure I am that strong anymore...and I would like to do more than just 'manage'.
May I survive this new normal.........