Woke this morning feeling so damn discouraged.... my leg throbs, my hip aches, I'm dizzy, I have no patience and no motivation!
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sitting on my ass all day depresses me ....... GAH! I used to love sitting my ass on the sofa after a day of chores -- but now if I do one chore a day it's been a good day -- BUT -- one chore doesn't rate sitting my ass on the sofa type reward ya know?
not even counting how many days are behind me help -- cause it's been over 2 weeks since my fall - and 6 days on the pills - and I kinda thought I would be more myself by now ..... and of course being me ... I'm fussing over what happens when the pills run out? do I have to go back to the doctor?? what if I have to have more tests?
Yeah today's a little depressed day...........
I'm not going to lie, this is most likely going to be a very long and frustrating process for you. Everyone is different if course as is every injury. I was in my early 40s when I hurt myself. They assured me because if my age and my physical fitness, I'd be back to myself in 6 weeks ( which I thought seemed so long ). It was much much longer.
ReplyDeleteI had to change my viewpoint on what success was for any given day. Uninjured me would not reward myself for one chore, but the scales had tipped in a different direction. I couldn't care to that time, just the day/week before. As Corney as it sounds you might have to look at this as small steps will lead to big strides- eventually. Trying to be who you were 3 weeks ago will only frustrate you further and potentially slow your progress.
I know it's not easy. I wrote a post during that time called, " I Want MY Life Back". My life is back, with the nagging fear that u could hurt myself again, lol, but it takes time. It's okay to feel the way you do, but try to not pile more on to those feelings with comparisons.
willie
Well, we are all different but I love to keep moving with projects too. But after my Covid experience I was warned by professionals and threatened by loved ones to take it easy. I did little things here and there, but followed their advice. It was frustrating but necessary. That's what this is for you. Be patient and be a good PATIENT, LOL.
ReplyDeleteIf you're bored and can't do much, why not write up some posts for your blog and save them so you can just post them on a day when you are back to being busy? I do that at times. I'll work on a piece and have it ready to go and then just post it when I feel it's time. Just a thought.
Or.....unless you're like me and restricted.....cruise porn and masturbate. LOLOLOLOL. ;-)
Well, kdpierre just made me laugh. So I will just send gentle hugs.
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Boo
Giggling at kd too lol. Seriously, I'm sorry you are dealing with this and feeling this way Morningstar. It truly sucks. For now you have to rest and take it easy and try to celebrate the small steps. Each is a step forward in recovery.
ReplyDeleteJust a question also. Did the doctor warn you the drugs may make you dizzy? I just wonder if you may be reacting to them and whether it may be a good idea to contact the clinic and see what they say.
Hugs
Roz
Roz - yes dizziness is one of the side effects from one of the pills I'll just struggle on .... the pain isn't as bad - I'm sleeping during the night (and napping a good part of the day too ) It's just going to take time me thinks :)
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