New Year's

i HATE New Year's eve..... i hate the whole idea of it.. ever since i was quite young....... to me it was an excuse to over indulge .. to kiss and fondle women at midnight ...... and to start the New Year off with a massive hang over ... sick stomach and bad taste in one's mouth....

i don't understand this one night a year to make a fool out of oneself... to sit around waiting for the stroke of midnight so everyone can shout Happy New Year........ did someone push a magic button somewhere that will make all the bad stuff from the previous year disappear?? and maybe the good stuff too?? who wiped the slate clean?? and why would anyone want to??

i stopped having expectations for this one night of the year a long time ago... long long time ago....... i also stopped partying on this one night of the year a long long time ago...... i prefered spending the evening with close friends.. eating a good meal... playing some board games.. laughing and chatting and maybe just maybe noticing at midnight that the year had come to an end.......... and if we missed it .. so much the better...

This year was going to be different....... others were busy with other commitments.. so Sir and i planned to go and see Memoirs of a Geisha........ grab a quick bite to eat.. and come home early .. safely.. and i remember adding to the wish list.. perhaps W/we could greet the new year with a damn good spanking/paddling/flogging........ a simple celebration .. more my style ...........

Wellllllllllllll between the boa constrictor gobbling up my pc (which i hate to say i am still not quite sure i have completed defeated)..... and my tears and frustration.. the day / evening didn't exactly turn out the way i had hoped.... (best laid plans of mice and men i guess).. Sir and i did get to see Memoirs of a Geisha - it was as good as i expected .. maybe better as they didn't butcher the book's story line too badly...... we did grab a bite to eat.... and we did get home safely......and we spent the rest of the evening watching TV..... with Sir napping...........

Am i a little sad.. a little disappointed Sir and i didn't greet this New Year with paddles and floggers?? yeah... of course !! Too many vanilla commitments.. too many unplanned circumstances.. too many whatevers......... shit happens as the expression goes.....am i supersitious enough to worry this is a sign of what the New Year holds for me.. yup.. that too.......

Today we have invited some BDSM friends to an open house complete with play room and light buffet (an annual event)........ Sir calls me the Martha Stewart of the BDSM world as i fuss over the right coloured table cloth .. and serving platters......... but tonite as with the rest of this blessed holiday season .. i will play hostess for my Sir.. and my heart will long for something completely different............