Blog Personality

The other day - after i had written the "rant" - i read another blog - cherish’s actually - where she asks if your personality matches your blog..... it got me really thinking...... i was already on that tract.. re-evaluating my blog and what i write..... but cherish's post refocused my thinking a bit.

IS my personality coming through in my blog??

i think it was........ maybe it still is..... maybe it just needs a little tweaking.......... i wasn't going to post until i got it all worked out.. i wasn't!

But then the fates changed my plans....... you see i received an email from one of my readers... actually i had originally sent Him one.. because of a comment on one of my blogs.. He made me laugh when i dearly needed to laugh at myself... it felt good... and i wrote to thank Him... He said a couple of important things to me..

1) He enjoys reading my blog - said it was a fun read
now you see.. that touched me.. cause i like to think - for the most part - i AM a fun person. And god i wanted that to come through in my blog. Life is just too damn serious most of the time! And as someone once said - "You ain't gonna get out of it alive! " When i come home from work i need very little....... i need quiet and peace in my home.... i need laughter .. to wash away some of the nightmares that follow me home from work occasionally.... i need the pain/pleasure that only Sir can give me .. to refocus my mind on what is really important in life......... and once i have those things i can be let loose on the vanilla world once again......
When i am with Sir .. most of the time .. i am a little devil.. yes i stamp my foot.. and pout.. and whine.. and wiggle and squirm and cause Him headaches.. and know what else?? i play!! i play and laugh and have fun!! Sir says i am like a child.... and i know i make Him laugh too.....and i think Sir plays too.. after all.. there was the challenge of the 103 toothpicks right??!!....i am glad that the fun side comes through in my blogs

2) He said that i wasn't a stupid lil anything....
which was very nice to hear...... i don't think i am stupid.. some times i make stupid mistakes.... and sometimes i can feel stupid........ but i know i am not....... and i am very glad that it comes through in my blog........

3) And He said that occasionally my blog turns Him on....... said it was an added plus....
NOW that one i am struggling with........ i have never thought that i turn people on... i am naive that way......... once upon a long time ago....... i had a dear male friend who was helping me deal with this sexuality thing......... and He pointed out to me that in the most innocent ways i turned men (and on occasion women) on. i was shocked.. i wanted to find a deep hole.. climb in and pull the top in after me........... i NEVER wanted to be thought of as - god forbid - a cock teaser! (do they have an expression "pussy teaser"??) i wanted to know what it was i did that made men see me as a sexual thing....... (mind you.. in my humble opinion it doesn't take much to have men see anything in a skirt as a sexual thing.. ok ok.. no MEN BASHING!!! ) i remember Him grinning at me and saying.... "just looking into your eyes can do it"... wellllll i most certainly couldn't poke out my eyes now could i???!!
i have .. over the years.. come to realize i am a very sexual person.. i like sex.. no wait.. i LOVE sex! Once when i was "trainee" and Sir used to make me sleep on the floor beside His bed....... i said to Him....... "now see.. if and when i have a Master.. He will not make me sleep on the floor......... i would wiggle so nicely.. flutter my eyelashes just so.. and give Him such a wonderful blow job that He would want me in the bed with Him.. at His disposal all night long".. (ok ok !!! that was MY fantasy!!! ) BUT .. i do sleep in the bed beside my Sir every night now (wicked grin).. draw your own conclusions !!!
and so .. despite the fact that i blushed when i read that my blog turned this reader on.. i was just a little bit pleased........ cause all great stories (well adult ones at least) have an element of sexuality in them........ and i am glad it comes through in my blog........

i will be continuing to tweak what i write in my blog....... i want it to be ME.... to express my views.. my opinions.. my devilish streak.. my playful side.. i want it to be about ME.. not about what others expect.......... but thanks to the "friend" (if i may be so bold as to call Him that) showed me.. most of what i am is coming through !!!!