Monday, July 18, 2016
There has been a friendship problem in my life. I was told how I was feeling -- yes that's right -- I WAS TOLD HOW I FELT. Nothing irritates me more than being told how I feel -- or how I should feel....
And in one form or another -- I was also being told by folks to "FIX IT" (which you may not realize -- says to me "You broke it - you fix it!" thank you very much for placing that blame squarely/solely on MY shoulders)
we talked on the weekend --
And I have been processing what we said to each other.
AND I realized -- I may have been at fault
at one point I was very broken -- and weak -- and trying to find my feet -- trying to find who I was again........... and I leaned too heavily on a friend to help me find my feet.
THAT was definitely my fault. I was allowing someone to replace W and tell me what to do and how to do it.........I should never have allowed that! That had been unhealthy for too long -- I should not have allowed that to continue in any form!
I was -- way back 'before' - a very strong independent woman who took care of herself quite well........... and took care of her family .... and a whole mess of other folks.
I found my way back to that place.
Friend and I had to sort that out......... and we tried.
Did we succeed??
Only time will tell.