Wednesday, December 07, 2016
Naughty Girl List (contd)
Before, when I was collared, I wasn't allowed to wear underpants. It made me feel very uncomfortable and embarrassed. Changes happened -- and I started to wear them again -- without a thought.
Hands worked very hard to make me start feeling comfortable with my body -- with my self image -- with my sexuality. I remember the second time we had private time together........ I decided to wear a cute lil dress but no underwear. I can still see Hands' face when he ran his hand up under my dress. My heart nearly stopped. I thought he was shocked -- I thought he would think less of me.
We didn't talk about it for a long time. Then one day - in a moment of weakness - I asked him if I had shocked him that day. He just gave me this wicked grin of his and said 'not at all'.
Since then I never wear underpants when we have private time...... it makes me feel sexy. I was wondering why this time was so different...... and I realized that because Hands encourages my sexuality -- enjoys it -- and pushes me to fully accept it myself -- that not wearing underwear is actually a huge turn on.
When Hands says he wants me fully accessible to him it is not just words. He means it. And he takes full advantage of my accessibility. What a difference from before -- when mostly I felt invisible!! I never feel invisible with Hands -- I never feel I should repress my sexuality -- I am learning how to be a naughty girl for the right man.
And that is a very good thing!