One of the obstacles that Hands and I had to overcome was the distance between us. and our busy lives.
To try and keep us connected, every once in a while, (in the beginning) Hands would tell me to masturbate. (actually he called it "play time") and I would call those times "tasks" here on the Continued Journey (that was the 'good girl's' way of handling it)
In between times I would masturbate without being told..... but I thought to myself -- I want him to know how often I need to masturbate. I assumed -- like so many before him -- when he discovered how strong my sex drive was -- it would drive him off -- it had happened over and over before. Which just proved to me that something must be wrong with me!! So I told him I was going to ask for permission to masturbate every time I needed to -- and if he was working he didn't have to answer -- but I wanted him to know.
Well a couple of things happened .....
1 - was that now I have no desire to masturbate unless he tells me to and fortunately he's pretty damn frequent about play times -- and doesn't accept excuses not to....
2 - it gave him a chance to introduce me to anal via the internet -- making me start playing with myself -- without him being here. and help me deal with the taboo nature of it -- and my total fear of doing it.
ohhhhhh and there is one other thing that has happened
3 - before - masturbating was just a 'taking care of business' sort of thing -- now Hands will push my limits a little bit -- and add some twists to the play time -- for example adding nipple clamps -- or clothes pegs -- or more than one play time over a period of time.
Hands hasn't run from my sexuality -- if anything he has encouraged it and pushed it. He has always said my orgasms are for him whether I am with him or not.. and the more I have the happier he is.
What an amazing transformation that has created in me -- now I am not ashamed of my sex drive -- if anything it is growing ........ and that (I am learning) is a very good thing!
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