I was remembering - the other day - my 30th Birthday. I stood in front of the bathroom mirror and looked at my reflection....... my hair was long and in 2 braids and I was shocked... I thought 'oh my god - I have to grow up now! I am 30!!" I went out the next day and got my hair cut off and permed and came home looking like my mother.
The next birthday that hit me hard was 50 - the big 5 0 .......
BUT truthfully those birthdays weren't that old ya know?!
Two years ago I got a new doctor - he talked about getting me healthier -- giving me more healthy years........... now I all see in the news is talk about seniors and how the medical profession is trying to give them more healthy years........ life expectancy doesn't count as much now -- now what counts is getting more healthy years
I am older than my father was when he died -- and in one year I will be older than my mother when she died of breast cancer.
My next birthday in 8 months is another big one -- a really big one -- it scares me this birthday. I keep wondering how many healthy years I have left.......... and deep down inside I wish I could turn back the clock -- back to that 50th birthday .. I would change so much.........
Sometimes reality bites.