I am gonna show my ignorance here.. not sure if anyone else uses the term "jonesing" it wasn't something I heard / used before I met S&S. However it has come to be my usual state of being by Wednesday.
Jonesing is dancing around fidgeting wanting craving needing ......... can't bloody wait !!!
This jonesing attitude is multiplying 10 fold this week........ because I have discovered I don't just do this jonesing thing for BDSM..........
Have you noticed a little clock ticking away in the right column......... 19 days it says today........ that is 19 more days till summer vacation. (and 40 days till I head off to visit the Heron Clan!!)
And I am tired........ more than tired.. exhausted.
It has not been an easy year for me...
You know the stresses doctors list off as being extremely bad for you?? moving, death, divorce.
Kill ya kind of stress.
This year I have changed jobs, moved, got deathly sick and had a 10 year relationship end. I am like the bloody energizer bunny - I just keep on going.
BUT I am beginning to feel the effects. I want to curl up in a little ball, pull the blankets over my head and just sort of let the world carry on without me for a little while. I want someone to snuggle me and hold me.. and let me cry and promise me it will get all better. Even though I KNOW it will get all better.. and summer will come and between now and then my dance card is still full.....
It's just right now......... right this very minute... I am tired.. and feeling sorry for myself.
Ok - so maybe this post isn't so much about jonesing as it is a pity party...... and hey I haven't had one of those in a LONG time.... so I am allowed !