Day 1. 10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now.
Day 2. 9 Things about you
Day 3. 8 ways to win your heart
Day 4. 7 things that cross your mind a lot
Day 5. 6 things you wish you had never done.
Day 6. 5 people who mean a lot to you (in no order what-so-ever)
Day 7. 4 turn offs
Day 8. 3 turn ons
Day 9. 2 images that describe your life right now and why
Day 10. 1 Confession
and thought why not?? sounds like fun...........
Then I started to work on it - and I realized IF I was gonna do it honestly - it was a whole lot tougher than I thought it was gonna be.
It didn't take me long to get down to #3 - "8 ways to win your heart" - and I stopped. Heart?? I don't really want to talk about my heart anymore. It was really hard to lay out a road map to my heart...when I have created a maze of epic proportions and thrown up walls so no one can get that close again. I really struggled and struggled but managed to do it......
THEN 6 things you wish you had never done......... seriously??!!! talk about laying out your flaws for the world to pick apart.
Challenge 9 and especially Challenge 10 have me stumped and pulling back inside myself.
And I can't help but think these challenges are maybe worse than my visits to the therapist's office........ even she hasn't touched on these topics with me yet. Oh I am pretty sure they're gonna come up - and more - cause as much as I am moving forward for now - there are still huge areas of my soul / heart that need to be laid out and examined - evaluated - and maybe some bandaides put on to help the healing process.
In a funny (strange) way I am thinking this challenge may just be another step to pulling all the puzzle pieces together - and fitting them back into place...into helping me be whole again.
I'd never answer such inquisitive questions, why should you?
ReplyDeleteThey're for your therapist only, not for the whole fetlife to see, at least that's my opinion.
I know Ordalie - this isn't your style :)
ReplyDeleteBUT I have been facing so many challenges recently and finding I am truly growing from them...... that I see this as just one more of those challenges.
I could answer them tongue in cheek but I won't ... shrug - just cause that's who i am.