WTF!!

 

I am stunned this morning..... I honestly believed that Biden would win the election hands down...........

Here's some sympathetic memes for my American friends (mostly tongue in cheek)

 

 

 

 

 

Ignorant People

 

 

From the beginning of this pandemic back in March I honestly thought we'd get a handle on it fairly quickly - whatever it took.... I could almost see a light at the end of the tunnel.

BUT over the 8 months it has distressed me how many folks rant about conspiracies and their rights to not wear a mask and to party and to do whatever the hell they want to.......... in a word 'ignorant' people.

Yesterday I was out doing groceries..... at our local grocer I watched while a woman sampled a grape from numerous packets of grapes...... pulling one out of the bag - pulling down her mask and popping it in her mouth.... over and over again.  I couldn't believe it!!! I spoke to an employee who got the manager.   As much as the manager spoke to the woman - that is all they did.  The packets of grapes were not removed or even washed down....... The woman was left to roam through the rest of the fruit department and the fresh veggie department - handling everything!

AND we wonder why our covid numbers are climbing..... 

Life is frustrating when we have to deal with ignorant people 

Opinion........

There really are a whole lot of 'stupid' people out there......... and this pandemic is putting the spot light on them..... dontcha think???

This past weekend the weather was beautiful and there were crowds ... 
C. R. O. W. D. S.  .......... of people out and about - and not just in the States or in Toronto - all over.  It's as though sunshine and warmth melted their brains ya know??

I saw a picture of a park?? (I think it was a park) in San Francisco (I think it was San Francisco - grinning - do ya think my brain is in country mode?!)  

Anywayyyyy  

the city had painted white circles 6 feet apart over the entire area.....and people were sitting in the circles !!  there weren't any large groups of 'stupid people' bunched up.  I was thinking - most people are very visual - saying 6 feet doesn't register with them.. paint circles and they 'get it'.  (It might help them visualize if there were a number of security people ready to write hefty fines too)........

Know where else you find stupid people?? On social media sprouting off how their freedoms are being trampled on..... or how unfair that schools look like prisons... or how they need their hair cut (me too!!) and why aren't the salons open...... or they need a mani/pedi and why aren't the spas open......... oh the list is endless.  AND ya know ... trying to talk with them is a total waste of time!  I gave up about 2 days into lock down.  

For the most part -- for most days -- I realize how lucky we are. And then yesterday I read this .............

I felt very humbled......... 

Life is very good even when we have to self distance and do without........ 


 

One Time Only!

Well this isn't facebook -- and I really don't expect to change anyone's mind......... 
BUT I do feel a need to get stuff off my chest.........

 The above cartoon came across my FB feed this morning.........a lot of editorial cartoons come up ever day....... some of them are very clever (like the one above) but I don't understand why so many Canadians are voicing their opinions of Trump.. honest I don't!  Do we really think we're gonna change anyone's mind?  Do we really think we should stick our noses into their political 'crisis'?  
AND
Do we really believe (does anyone really believe) that opinions posted on FB are gonna change anything??!!  REALLY??!!

Let's take a look at the political situation a little closer to home..... like Ontario.

Our premier ran his platform on a promise of ' a buck a beer' ...... and he won!!  It boggles my mind....... when he was a teenager - he sold drugs out of the trunk of his car at a public park...... he dropped out of school in grade 10....  

The list of the horrific things he is doing to our province is so long I can't do it justice ... but things like giving his MP's a 14% increase in salary and denying teachers a 2% increase... cutting funds for health research... for our OPP (provincial police force) .. women's shelters... tech start up ... 

and his latest embarrassment on a trip to Washington he bad-mouthed Nancy Pelosi and the impeachment trials.... really??!!!  seems Mr Trump must be his idol.. and he needs to suck up??!!!

But honestly no matter how much these politicians make your blood boil is posting it on FB gonna change anything? I think not!  The only way to change the political situation is to 1) educate yourself !!!  dear god please learn everything you can about your local (or not so local) politician........ then 2) V O T E !

and lastly 3) pray that the pendulum swings back to the sanity side

Authority Figures

I am so submissive by nature.......... when someone is in a position of 'authority' I put them up on a pedestal and 'worship' them?? OK OK maybe not worship -- but I sure as hell never question what they tell me...... 

Let's start with  DOCTORS 

A couple of years ago my then family doctor called me after some blood tests and told me I had to go on a B12 supplement because my B12 levels were terribly low.  He told me to go get the largest dose of B12 one can buy and take it every day.  Being the good patient I did as he told me.......... 

Now I have a new doctor -- and he reviewed my medications with me -- prescription and over the counter.  He questioned why the B12 and I told him.  He was looking at my file -- he told me I was just barely under the acceptable level...... he said I certainly didn't need such a large dose........ he told me to cut my daily intake by more than half.  I asked for another blood test to give me (if not him) an idea of where my B12 levels were......... 

Yesterday I had the blood tests -- today I got the results.  The only item on the list of tests that was abnormal was -- you guessed it -- my B12!!  It was even marked as being VERY high.  My B12 is 800+  ....... it had been 138 ...normal is between 150 and 400.......... So now I am thinking I maybe should cut the dose I am on in half...... I see the doctor in another 4 weeks  and I'm sure he'll have some thoughts on the dosage.....

BUT it kinda leaves me wondering who can you trust with your health???

Now another set of authority figures........... 

Teachers.

A little over 2 weeks ago I wrote #Mybody....... explaining how the lil one's teacher had reacted to her reporting (to a friend) an accidental 'bad touch'.  Sir Steve contacted the teacher and principal -- and as I told you all -- their response did not satisfy us.  (you can read that one HERE)  So Sir Steve asked for a meeting with both the teacher - the principal - and the lil one.  

He has played telephone tag with the school for all this time....... BUT finally yesterday they agreed to a meeting this afternoon after school !!!  
About bloody time!  Let's hope we have some resolution to this today and maybe it'll make just a small impact on how other similar situations are handled.

Life is good when you find your own voice...... for yourself and the lil ones.

No Apology

I will not apologize for yesterday's blog.  I have always said this is my blog -- where I write out my fears ... my hopes... my dreams.  

I understand some..... most??... of you may not agree with me..... that's ok! You have that right -- the same way as I have the right to feel the way I feel.  I do not write fantasies .... I do not just write the 'good stuff'.... I write about my life ..... and sometimes it's dark and sad and sometimes it's the best place to be..... most of the time it's a combination of both.

I do take exception to being told I sound ungrateful.  Really???  Ungrateful for what??  You can not read bits and pieces of my life here and think you really truly know me!  AND to make those accusations behind the mask of "anonymity"  (shaking head).  Unlike a few women I have known -- I support myself ..... I do not look to a man to complete me.  I do not collect men.  I do not NEED a man.  You can take your 'ungrateful' comment
 and ................................. 

WTF!!! (small rant)

(and because some people get bent out of shape over stuff I write -- this is MY opinion and only my opinion!  You don't have to agree with me)
 

I have been back on Fetlife these past couple of days -- because another sub and I are arranging a lunch date on Monday.

Today when I popped on I saw a post by someone I know (who for the record is a male submissive) ...... about how 'male' submissives should be "paying" the Dominant they play with........ 

Pay you ask??!!  yup P A Y !!  with service -- like cutting her lawn or shoveling her snow or fixing a leaky faucet........ AND it should be done before any play ensues because the sub will never actually pay the service once played with.

W T F !!??

I HATE double standards -- and this reeks of double standards.

Not 5 years ago I witnessed the 'black balling' of a male Dominant for demanding 'payment' for play.  He was figuratively tarred and feathered and dragged around the community for all to see and go TSK TSK

I went tsk tsk too -- because ya know -- play is play !!  It shouldn't require any sort of payment ........ that makes it a Pro Dom situation no???

One of the reasons I have left Fetlife and the public community is because so many poor lil female subs are crying "rape" or "non-consensual" play -- and pointing fingers at Doms and everyone gets bent of shape because some poor helpless female just got taken advantage of............... makes my blood boil!!  BUT it is ok for a female Domme to demand service before play??!!!!


When I played with Doms at parties (other than my Dom) I did offer service before and after - service equaled fetching them drinks or snacks ....nothing more nothing less.  AND I never played with any Dom who expected payment.   After all don't they get enjoyment out of playing?? mutual enjoyment should be reward enough no??? 

IF I give you a gift -- I do not expect a gift in return -- a 'thank you' is nice -- but a gift? NO..... I gave the gift because of the pleasure it gave me to do something nice..... and to see the pleasure on your face.

This journal entry this morning on Fetlife just proves to me -- once again -- why I have no patience with Fetlife -- or patience with the new mentality of the BDSM players.



(rant over -- putting away my soap box)


 

Ripples

So ........... I decided to not be too nostalgic about past play parties and munches etc.

Then the ripple effect started to happen..... 

I was talking to Angelsquest yesterday about this new attitude of mine -- and believe it or not -- Fetlife.  She told me she had taken her account down -- and I realized I haven't been on there in AGES!!  I agreed with her that Fetlife had changed -- but has it changed -- or have the changes in my life made Fetlife less current??? Maybe a bit of both.  I have taken sabbaticals from Fetlife before -- once for about 5 years ....... so I posted a 'so long for now' post over there...... will leave my profile there cause yeah ya never know ........ 

Last evening Sir Steve and I were chatting about how things have changed in the lifestyle......... and how they've stayed the same... reminiscing a bit I guess. 

Then lo and behold he got a message on Fetlife from a couple that are looking for a 'teacher' and maybe friends in the lifestyle....... we talked about it and I suggested he just ask them to define 'teacher'....... cause their definition might be very different from his.

AND I have had a submissive approach me to see if I wanted to go out for coffee with her.

(smiling)

So it would seem the 'lifestyle' is not ready to let go of us.  But we are cautious.  This town we're in has a fairly big swingers group...... and Sir Steve and I don't want or need to share the sex part of our lives.

BUT
we are open to friends with the same philosophy on life.......... 

Life changes and takes detours .... but it never stops.

 

Tick Tock

This morning I read a piece over on Fondlers Anonymous about 'Time' ..... I left a comment but realized I wanted to write more ..... so here I am!

I almost always did what was expected of me -- or maybe to be fair -- I did what I knew... I got married -- had the 2.5 children -- the house in the burbs -- and was ready to spend my life living a mirror image of my parents.  BUT as my girls got older -- I realized how much I didn't know.  How much I hadn't experienced.  How much I wanted to experience.  I am not proud of ending my marriage -- he was a good man -- just not (unfortunately) the man for me.  

(tick tock tick tock)

I really wanted to experience BDSM -- I REALLY wanted to be a submissive -- to turn my life / my body  over to a Dominant.  To someone who would value me and treat me like some precious gift.

The only problem was the Dominant I found -- he didn't 'get' monogamous. Slave or submissive -- I still believed in monogamy.  He didn't.  And so I ended the relationship in a snit -- figuratively throwing his collar back at him.  

(tick tock tick tock)

I explored the BDSM world on my own.  I met Sir Steve and Sir Kira ........but as my partnership with them ended I realized I wanted someone for me ..... I didn't want to share..... and believe it or not -- I went back to that Dominant who cheated on me......... simple minded me believed IF we defined monogamy -- IF we were both on the same page -- it could work -- it would work!!  I would make it work!!

(tick tock tick tock)

It did work for a bit....... until it didn't work.  I am not proud of the steps I took to get the information that ended the relationship -- I read his messages to other women -- read his emails to other women -- stalked his friends on Facebook.  And finally confronted 2 of my 'friends' about their relationship with him.  Then I confronted him....... and then I moved out.  Monogamy was definitely NOT in his vocabulary.

(tick tock tick tock)

I remember one day sitting in my lil home in Kingston -- reviewing my life.  Realizing living on my own wasn't such a bad thing.  At least my heart was safe...... and I questioned my need to be submissive -- to be 'bossed' around by someone who barely had his life together.  

But as each birthday rolled around I felt older and older -- and I started to feel that the life I had dreamed of was not going to happen.  I was going to be on my own -- probably become the crazy cat lady.

(tick tock tick tock)

And then Sir Steve popped up in my life again.
I didn't recognise myself.  I went after this relationship with a passion.  I didn't weigh the pros and cons of moving to be with him... I didn't over think the relationship... I didn't give a damn how many times my parents rolled over in their graves -- or what my brother would think of me -- or what my girls would think.  I was going to take that big step off the edge and trust he would catch me. 

I am 17 years older than Sir Steve -- more than half my life is over.  I want to squeeze as much living as possible into the time we have together.  I don't want to waste one more minute worrying about what people think...... I want to grab life and live it to the fullest.  I am the best person -- P E R S O N -- I can be with him -- not submissive not slave just ME.  And he is the best person -- P E R S O N -- he can be with me -- not Dominant or domineering or even bossy he's just HIM.

Spending time with Sir Steve -- with the right person -- is a very good thing!

A little Different View

On this day November 11th can we remember not only those who died during the wars -- those who came home injured -- BUT also all the innocent people who died during the wars.

Is it not time to maybe -- MAYBE?? -- start teaching peace and tolerance and acceptance to our children instead of the glories of guns and wars and death

Is it not time to learn a better way to handle our conflicts / differences? Is it not time to teach a better of living?  

Is it not time for peace?

A Little Reminder

It would seem I need to repeat this every so often.

This is MY blog.

This is where I write MY thoughts, MY feelings, MY philosophies, MY judgements.

IF you don't like what I write
IF what I write causes you stress or PTSD flair ups
IF what I write makes you sad or angry or depressed

Don't come read here.  DO NOT COME AND READ HERE.

Is that clear? 

Good -- now let's move on 

"Too Old for This Shit"

I was cruising around Fetlife yesterday -- and read a piece about being too old for BDSM.  The reasons - the so-called Dom gave - were: 1) she wasn't as pretty as the young submissives -- 2) she wouldn't be able to take as much as she aged and 3) she would develop health issues.

The last one reminded me of something someone said to me in the past year -- that I worried him because of my age.  WTF!?   First of all I would venture a guess I am probably in better shape than he was........ I am most definitely in better shape than when I started in BDSM some 25+ years ago.

As a society we DO put a whole mess of emphasis on age.  It bugs me (probably cause I am as old as dirt)   I look at the men in the lifestyle and I don't hear anyone telling them they are too old...(despite their health issues and their Viagra and various other peculiarities that come with age)!!  what I have learned on Fetlife (and to some degree in real life) is that women can be too old but men are never too old.  I really do HATE double standards.
 
What I do know for a fact is that there are still a whole lot of things I want to experience/try in this lifestyle and I refuse to say "I'm too old for this shit".  I am also very glad I have Sir Steve who is young enough to keep up with me -- adventuresome enough to try new things -- and bold enough to push me to be a better version of myself.

True

Once Again

There's yet another shit storm going on over on FL.  Why oh why do I read these posts??!!

Reader's Digest version 
There was a play party in Houston and apparently some people decided to play consent non-consent in front of everyone.

When I read the original post against - I thought that it made perfect sense to me.  It sounded like a good test of people's willingness to call in a DM -- or someone in charge....  a couple of people did approach a DM and were told (from what I understand) that it was ok not to worry.  I guess they thought the DMs should have stopped it.  And got a little bent out of shape when they didn't.

Apparently the whole thing -- as edgy as it was -- was sort of an advertisement for an upcoming educational event on what to do in the event of problems at a play party.

Shrug

Now of course everyone is on the bandwagon - going on and on about how awful this was -- how disturbing it was.

Now I wasn't there -- and I guess I really shouldn't get bent out of shape ....... but ya know what??? Hands and his wife and I have had a couple of conversations about how "watered down" BDSM is becoming.  We seem to be sanitizing everything for fear we might upset someone's sensibilities.  Hell everyone who writes anything the least bit 'edgy' on FL now are posting "trigger warnings" at the top -- because god forbid someone might have flash backs to some horrendous ordeal they have been through!

I sit shaking my head.  Really??!!!  IF I start to read something that makes me uncomfortable I simply close it down and move on.  If I see something at a play party that upsets me I move away.  What is wrong with people??!!!  We are all adults for god's sakes.  Why are we not taking responsibility for ourselves??  Why are people expecting everyone else to protect them?? poor lost souls.  

I used to try to be involved in this new community.  I used to think I had something to offer.  But ya know -- not so much anymore.  The way I was brought up -- the way I was trained in the lifestyle -- makes me who I am.... for better or worse. And I can't / won't change.  I tried that for a bit and it didn't work.  I upset folks -- I have alienated folks.  That upsets the people pleaser in me.  So I will cuddle up in my lil corner of the universe and be happy (very happy) with my life now.  And I will let the new generation of kinksters take care of each other -- whatever that looks like.

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BDSM thoughts

I am as old as dirt -- and have been around the BDSM lifestyle before there was an "internet" to find 'like minded' people.

I 'cut my teeth' on D/s -- on protocols and rituals and Yes Sir No Sir philosopy ........... 

The internet opened up a mostly private world to new folks -- folks who didn't necessarily fall into one of the categories that were already established -- Dom/Master or sub/slave.  

The group I was involved with eyed the newcomers with patience -- and tolerance.  BUT they rarely if ever invited the newbies to events we held.  The philosophy was they won't fit with our way of doing things -- they can be "kinksters" - they can be "swingers" - they can be "players" but not with us.  I learned, that when we were out at public events, to be polite -- to smile and be socially graceful to them -- but not to include them.  We had our ways -- they had theirs.

For years these newcomers were on the fringes of my life -- I do remember one public party where the newcomers were draped all over the equipment -- not using it -- just posing for their friends in their fancy expensive outfits.  The 'doms' carried floggers tucked into their belts -- the subs had fancy collars on with leashes attached.  They didn't play -- they just walked around -- were seen -- and posed.  

And a new term was coined -- 'the new S/m' - stand and model.  

Life continued on -- I moved on -- I dipped my toes into the newer BDSM -- played in the shallow end with them -- laughed and joked and bratted -- and watched. 
 I have watched a total disintegration (in my opinion) of the beauty of BDSM -- now it is not about being pleasing and graceful -- it seems to me -- it is more about being showy and flashy -- and outrageous.  

For heaven's sakes I saw the other day a picture of someone's toys -- and right in the center of some paddles was an anime mask.  WTF??!!  an anime maske?? I kept thinking how that Top would look like some wrestler from the WWWF (or whatever it is called)   Where was the beauty - or the grace in that?? 

I have read article after article arguing / debating basic tenets of BDSM - BASIC TENETS -- it is being twisted and changed -- and people are being rude and bullies!! Stand and Model is becoming the norm not the exception.  People are training other people without any creds -- well not creds that I am used to (and yes this is JUST my opinion)

People are laughing at collars -- don't see the need for them -- don't understand the significance -- the honour of them...  People don't seem to understand the whole power exchange thing -- are watering down the "gift of submission" 

It honestly feels like the lifestyle I love and cherish is being ridiculed and laughed at... I am a foreigner in my own world.

And so it has come full circle -- I hardly go on Fetlife -- only to answer the odd email message -- or to look up the one munch I will now attend.  I glance at my feed and shake my head and log off.  I do not belong there -- not anymore.  Now my BDSM is private again.  Now I will only engage with people who understand my BDSM world -- who appreciate and honour the beauty of my BDSM world......... the quiet beauty of protocols and rituals -- not done as a "side show' for others -- but for the one who holds my heart -- my submission.

 
 

 

Attitude

On Sunday Angel and I were sitting on my balcony discussing the kink community and  fat shaming, skinny shaming, sex shaming any and all forms of shaming.

You know what really gets me going - age shaming.  I have reached a glorious NUMBER that makes me - in some people's opinion - OLD.  I think I was gob smacked the first time, a few years ago, when someone made a crack about my age.  BUT as the years pass, I am hearing it more and more - that I am old.  It isn't even a statement of fact - I might be able to tolerate that - it feels more like a put down.

It has been insinuated that I am too OLD to play - too OLD to serve - just plain TOO OLD.

On Sunday I asked Angel how many people we know in the lifestyle over the age of 60...... there seems to be some magic to that number.  Honestly we could only think of a handful.  I wondered out loud if all the cracks about being old had just worn them down..... and they had "disappeared".   And it bothered me.  Are people just expecting me to "disappear"??? 

I don't know (see me shrugging) I guess I always thought maturity and experience counted for something.  Perhaps I was wrong.  And let's get one thing straight - maturity and experience does not always come with a NUMBER!  But I like to think in my case it does.  

So....if you're looking for me - I won't be "disappearing" any time soon.... I'll just be sitting over here with my attitude, quietly watching the asses make asses of themselves... watching the same discussions come up over and over again... watching the same advise go swirling past.. watching the dramas develop and unfold ....watching "summer reruns" over and over again.  Waiting for folks to grow up.

Feelings

 

When I was teaching - one of the things that was drummed into my head as a young new teacher was to ALWAYS validate how a child felt.  It made good sense to me - the one who feels things (even simple silly things) so deeply owns those feelings right or wrong.  It has been a philosophy I have maintained in all aspects of my life.

If someone says "I feel.............. " I will listen and offer a shoulder and an ear - because ya know that's what they FEEL.   I will try to offer a different way of looking at the situation but I won't ever say "you are wrong for feeling that"

I have used that same philosophy when newbies in the BDSM community react to situations.  I ALWAYS validate what they are FEELING and then try to get them to see things from another calmer point of view.  Usually those newbies are submissives.  

BUT ya know sometimes.............. 

those feelings a sub has might just affect the way another well meaning person feels.  

AND that never occurred to me.  

I am sitting here this morning thinking/wondering IF perhaps we protect new submissives too much.  IF we validate their feelings too much - even when we know in our heart of hearts that those feelings are wrong.

I was discussing this topic yesterday - and I realized - especially on Fetlife - we are all adults - yes we have the right to feelings ........ but I also think we have the right to block/delete/unfriend people who for whatever reason make us FEEL uncomfortable.

AND even more importantly

When we know the person's feelings were misplaced........ isn't that a teachable moment? (for lack of a better term).   Shouldn't we (at the very least!!) - when the opportunity presents itself - introduce the two parties   and help the newbie see that the "stalker" she saw in words on Fetlife - is in actual fact - a warm friendly person??

Sometimes I think we do a disservice to newbies when we don't show them that their initial feelings were wrong........ and we commit a worse disservice to the community at large by continuing to protect and validate false feelings.

It is time I think - to find a better way to make everyone - new and old a like - more responsible for their feelings, their actions and our responses to them.

 

 

Play Thing

There was a discussion over on Fetlife that I stumbled across that was titled "play is just sometimes fucking play" 

I read it with interest.

I have been on both sides of the argument.........

I know right now after 13 years of BDSM and play being serious shit - nothing to laugh at shit -- that I am totally enjoying the play aspect of it now. 

I have experienced two very different play styles over the last couple of months.  
With the Sadist - there are rules - like a fence around a playground - the rules help me to feel grounded and reassured cause I know exactly what to expect from him and he knows exactly what is expected of me.  And I need that, I realize - I really do - I need to know where I stand - what is expected and what I can expect in return.  It makes play fun and relaxing. They make me feel safe and valued and cared for.

The Daddy Dom relationship had no rules - no expectations.  I really struggle with that - oh it's play and it's fun - but not having that "fence around the playground" leaves me - I am not sure what the word is - ungrounded keeps coming to mind.  Feeling unsure of what is expected of me or what I can expect......  or even what I can ask for.

Play can be just fucking play -- and I know I can't ever go back to serious shit BDSM - nothing to laugh at shit ....... it's just not in me anymore.

BUT

I know for sure -- that there has to be guidelines or rules or something set down at the beginning so at least *I* know what the boundaries are - where the fences are around the play ground.

I need to feel safe and valued and most definitely cared about. 

Today has FINALLY arrived

Today is Election day here in Canada - FINALLY!

I am fed up with suffering through the attack ads (though I have to admit some of them amused me) .... and fed up with the promises (that we all KNOW they won't be able to / or be bothered to keep)

BUT most of all I am tired of folks getting all worked up over this election - pushing folks to go out and vote.  It seems to be the chatter every where I look - and facebook is probably the worst. 

I read an editorial that rocked the proverbial boat the other day.  I kept my tongue between my teeth because I am sure my approval of it would have shocked/angered/pissed off so many good folks.  Basically all it said was "you have the right to vote.............AND you have the right to NOT vote".  

We keep hearing about how we should vote because so many people in the world would love that right and don't have it.  Reminds me a lot of the mother saying "eat your dinner there are children starving in China"........  It is a shame some people don't have the right to vote - I agree.  BUT we do have the democratic right to vote - OR not to vote.

People get bent out of shape when folks share that they "spoiled their ballot" ... shrug.. I don't understand why you would waste the energy to go to a poll stand in line  and then spoil your ballot - but HEY!  it's your choice........ 

I admire the folks (especially the young ones) who are trying to understand where each party stands.....not an easy task!  but hey they are trying.... 

Being old enough to vote used to be a passage - a rite of adulthood.  I remember the first time I voted -- it felt like I had some how or other "made it".  Now after many years of election campaigns and elections I am a little more jaded.  I wonder if there is an honest politician........ I think they start off with the best of intentions ........ and then something happens to them between the polling station and the government buildings.

I never quite worked out what it is...... but the truth of the matter is - no matter what promises they make to get elected - the chances are they aren't gonna keep them.

But I will go out this morning and I will vote.  and no I won't spoil my ballot.  I will do it because it has been instilled in me that it is my right to vote - and in my humble opinion rights are more important than duty.

I won't watch the election returns tonite run on ad nauseum till the wee hours of the morning.. I honestly don't much care who wins.  Because as I said at the beginning - they all make wonderful promises and have such high ideals - until they reach the government buildings.

Tomorrow the sun will rise - and the days will run on - and the country will continue - maybe a bit bumpier than before - maybe less bumpy - but it will continue - and in four years we will do all this again........ 

Wash Rinse Repeat......... trust me when I say - after almost 12 elections I know the routine and the basic generic outcome 

Happy Election Day Canada!