Take the Lead..............

I am sure that picture was meant for something with more impact and definitely more importance than what I am going to discuss - BUT - it speaks to my younger years... to my naive belief that we (the generic we) could change the world.

For most of my working years I was the one to stand up at meetings and point out the glaring problems with the programs we were being told to implement.  I was the one tilting at windmills.  I remember one meeting where I had 20 people contact me via email and ask me to be the spokesperson - be the one to stand up and say ENOUGH.... all those 20 people agreed to stand behind me .. have my back.  Yeah except when push came to shove - those 20 lambs were nowhere to be found when I needed back up.......... from that point on I went to meetings and sat on my hands - fussed and fumed and cursed at the stupidity of the "suits" but I kept my mouth shut.  It just wasn't worth it to be known as "the shit disturber".  I was too old and tired.

I have a fighting spirit.......... and I tend to tilt at windmills - fight for lost causes and the underdog............ until I don't.

The BDSM community is another giant I have tried to take on from time to time,,, with about as much success as in the vanilla world.  I have taken up one cause after another and usually with the same outcome as in my vanilla world - when push came to shove no one was standing behind me.  They had pushed me out on that limb and then climbed down the tree,

I have been watching over the last year or so hot topics on Fetlife.  I have seen the posts railing at the way things are - the plans to change things - the talk and more talk and more talk - and absolutely NO action,

This morning I read some post or another along the line of "I may be a bitch but I am not your bitch".  I read the comments,  Over and over I read "you go girl" or "yeah I am with you - tell it like is".  I had to log off - cause the steam was coming out my ears.  

Right with you - nodding - oh yeah - until you are asked to actually take a stand... and then you vanish in a poof of smoke, along with all the other "right behind you's".  You find excuses for your feet of clay............

It is, in my humble opinion, a mighty sad world where no one ....... NO ONE.... is willing to stand up for what they believe in - fight to stop injustices - fight for change.

I am tired.  Maybe I am too jaded.  It does sadden me that I no longer want to take up the battle cry............but I honestly don't think anyone wants REAL change - they just like talking about it.

And that's my Saturday morning bitch.