fragile

i am feeling very fragile.......... the reasons aren't really important to this blog....... and i realize there is nothing anyone can do or say to make it better.......... but it is interesting to me how one's feelings can alter a session............

Yesterday Sir (without warning) grabbed a handful of hair and quick marched me down to the playroom and strung me up from the chains in the ceiling.. blindfolded me.. and just got down to "business"....... i was hurting so badly inside that it was like i didn't even feel the strokes or the stripes........ i wanted each stripe .. each stroke to hurt more than the last.. to open me up wide and let all the pain inside of me escape......... Sir obliged - though He has (i guess "had" is a better word seeing as He will know when He reads this) no idea how much pain was inside of me... how much i hurt.... how broken i felt.........

Sir was relentless .. over and over again.. using the worst of the toys... laying into my ass my back my thighs my breasts my pussy with everything He had.......... with all that was inside of Him.....i had stripes across my body........ and bruises (my god bruises! all over my ass when i went to bed)......... and i cried and sobbed.. and wanted nothing more than His strong arms around me... making everything alright again.........

He did wrap His arms around me... and did hold me tight... while my back burned and my pussy twitched.. and my ass hurt.... but inside .. deep inside there was a burning ache that nothing touched........ i feel shattered ... held together by a wisp of .. i do not know what...

i am fragile.....