on being wired differently

i have been asked many times why i am submissive?? why/how i find enjoyment in this lifestyle?? was i abused as a child?? Basically folks are just trying to understand why i do what i do....

My answer is not an easy one.... i have struggled to find the words to make this lifestyle clear to others. Know what?? there are no easy ways to describe it.. to describe what enjoyment i derive from serving one Man, from the "pain and pleasure" He gives me.

How does one describe to a blind person the many colours in this blog?? in the world?? Can they "see" the beauty of colours?? Can you make them understand the beauty??

And so it is with this lifestyle.......
i will say clearly and right up front .. that 4 years ago when Sir and i were first getting to know each other, first negotiating the narrow line between O/our needs and wants.... that my thoughts/desires wishes and fears were all very carefully detailed and outlined to Sir. He is a reputable, trustworthy Dominant who would NEVER EVER do something to cause serious physical injury or mental harm to anyone..never mind His submissive ! On the whole a submissive is a very valuable piece of property and should be treated as such. How long would any Dominant survive in this community if He became known as an abuser .. or someone who deliberately "damaged" His property???
SAFE SANE and CONSENTUAL is the rule that all should (and most do ) live by.

i have no idea what it is about me that gives me such pleasure from being whipped, or tied up and needled.. or tied up and waxed. i only know that it does! That anything and everything done to me is done with my acceptance. And don't forget, i also get great pleasure from serving my Sir.. from making His meals to doing His laundry, to answering His phone...

And before anyone starts speculating.. i was not physically or mentally abused as a child. But somewhere along the way, my wiring was done a wee bit differently than others. (shrug) perhaps how we are "wired" is a bit like fingerprints.. we are .. each and every one of us.. just a wee bit different from the next.. let's learn to live side by side with each other .. accepting .. caring.. non judgemental...

We are .. each of us.. unique in our own way and special because of it... all the colours of the world :) :)