I thought I had this whole weight thing figured out --
I thought I had the right balance - between exercise and food - to, at the very least, maintain my weight --
I weighed myself yesterday morning -- despite doing what everyone wants me to do (eating at least 1200 calories a day ) and exercising moderately I have put on over 3 pounds !!!!
I could feel (still feel) the knots in my stomach -- the disappointment in myself -- the shame -- the fear -- all of it piling up so high I couldn't see over the top.
And now I don't know what to do -- and it scares me
Yesterday was a bad bad day..........