ok so we all know what a long rough week I had. Saturday dawned and I just sorta kinda fell apart. I moved from my bed to the sofa and slept the morning away. I woke up long enough to make some lunch and then collapsed back on the sofa.
I was so tired - more than tired - exhausted.... body mind and soul. I was down... down for the count..... I'm not even sure I am ready to talk about everything that went wrong last week... mundane stuff.. but it cut me to my core. Gossip again.. that was spread to my parents and from the parents to my principal... AND this time my principal believed it...... and all I could think was I can't protest too much.... how does one fight mean spirited gossip when it's my word against someone else's - and I am not even allowed to know who????
Then my expense account (for over 400$) was given back to me - cause one receipt was NOT itemized.......... WTF???!!! do they honestly believe I would line my pockets???!!! I
Add to that my lil girl who is scared "mommy's gonna go to the sky" climbing onto my lap again (cause mom is too weak to see her and her sister).......... add to that 2 six year olds kissing and fondling each other and I had to speak to the parents..... add to that long days... and I just had nothing left.
Then Saturday afternoon - late afternoon - I got up off the sofa to get a cup of coffee and nearly fell over......... The pain in my groin that shot down to my knee was so severe.. what the hell was that???!!! I took advil - I took more advil - and the pain just got worse and worse. A pulled groin muscle (something I have never had so have no idea what it feels like) from lying around napping all day???!!! At that point I was looking for someone to accept my resignation from the human race.
Sunday morning the pain in the groin was worse - I could hardly get out of bed. My head hurt. I felt very sorry for myself and very alone. But alone was what I wanted .... I am such lousy company when I am out of sorts - physically and emotionally.
And being me... decided the pity party had gone on long enough - sore groin or not - the house was gonna get cleaned and the laundry done. And that's exactly what I did. Strange as it sounds - but cleaning house centers me - and gets me out of the doom and gloom moods that come over me every so often.
So here it is Monday again........ my house is clean ...my clothes are clean.... and that is really all I have control over. The pain in my groin has subsided to a dull ache. I have a new itemized receipt from the jewelry store... and my schedule for the week. I will do my job with my head held high - because I know.. *I* know - that the gossips are wrong..... and ultimately that is all that really counts.
eldest daughter posted the following pic this morning over on Facebook - so who wants to be my best friend???