AND - it's only 9:30 am!!!
I was hyped a bit cause I could book my second shot today at 8 AM. I had my computer up and running and I was ready to hit the keys at 7:50................
went through all the pages heading up to the 'book now' page. Hit the book now button and WHOA!!!!!!! my city wasn't even listed. OMG! panic hit........ cause I don't do driving to new places well... THEN I noticed that the city right near our campgrounds was on the list. Ok I can drive there - my family doctor is there. WAIT! there's only one day available.......... July 7th GAH!! we have the lil one then...... so I messaged Sir Steve and he is gonna work from the country that day. THEN he asked what vaccine I was getting......... GAH!! they didn't tell me - GAH!! what do I do if it's not Pfizer?? THEN (it just doesn't stop!) as I entered the date and time in my calendar I noticed that my yearly cancer test is set for the Friday!! GAH!! what if ........ what if............
Screw that! I'll deal with side effects and cancer tests if /when they happen.
And if that wasn't enough............
the lil one came home from mother's......... and we were doing our usual chat about the weekend ....... she was chattering away about friends she made .. and then she told me her Auntie Em was there............ AND BOOM! her whole attitude changed - her face got worried....... and she just ran out of steam. I knew something was wrong.. so I gently probed. Turns out the grandmother told her she was NOT to tell S about Auntie Em....... she even knew why - cause it's against the rules to have someone out of your household sleep over........ so two lies sort of.. ugh... you could see the stress on the lil one's face... I praised her over and over for telling the truth - didn't react to the news.... acted as though it was normal to have the aunt sleep over
When she started school I sent mother a message... I mean F**K this shit..... so I told mom that they were encouraging the lil one to lie... and adding stress to the lil one's life.. and how COULD she allow such a thing to happen to HER child?!!! all I got was the usual 'woe is me' it's all my mother's fault. same sh*t different day. I refused to let her make it all about her - kept bringing her back to the topic of her DAUGHTER!! the chat finished the way it always does - I feel a tad better 'cause I called her on her shit... and stood up for the lil one's peace of mind............ AGAIN! but will anything change - I can tell you - nothing will change - 99.9% sure!
And all this before 10 am. - hopefully the rest of the day will go a little smoother.
Morningstar, that little girl is so, so lucky to have you in her life!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you had such a stressful morning :( I hope the rest of the week is better.
the morning improved vastly Penelope - we have a routine here at 'recess' when the weather is good we take our 'snacks' out on the deck and chat .. I praised the lil one again for telling the truth and stressed to her that if/WHEN she's told to lie that she can and should say "I can't do that cause it is lying and I do NOT lie" ..... gotta give this child some power ya know?
DeleteYAY you! Not the anxiety part, but the booking part and calling out mom on the BS of lies.
ReplyDeleteWhen I grow up, I wanna be just like you!
Hugs
Boo
when you grow up - LOL - god Boo I hope you learn the lessons before you get to MY age LOL - but nice compliment - thank you :)
DeleteI truly hope that the rest of the day did go smoother
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yup it did Prefectdt...... but we have H E A T - and by the time Sir Steve got home I had melted into a grease spot...... le sigh.
DeleteI hope your day improved!
ReplyDeleteHi Morningstar,
ReplyDeleteGood on you for both making the booking and standing up for the lil one. Encouraging a child to lie is beyond belief, let alone potentially putting her at risk by breaking restrictions.
I sincerely hope your day improved.
Hugs
Roz
I got up bright and early on Monday to book our second vaccines, only to find NO appointments at all. I checked our public health site and read the message that there was no vaccine available here, but I registered us both on their waiting list.
ReplyDeleteThat evening I got a phone message that told me to go to the public health site next morning and book through them, as they had set aside a supply of vaccine for people in our age group. So I did, and our appointments are next Tuesday. Yaaay!
Hugs,
Hermione