Thursday, April 26, 2007


i am not "micro managed" like some submissives.. and i am not left to my own devices entirely... After the January hiatus.. Sir gave me a schedule of sorts.. i am to stop cleaning the whole house in one or two nights .. i am to clean one level of the house a week.. one room a day..... that bit i really like.. i was killing myself trying to get the house done completely top to bottom every week......

i am supposed to work out every day.. (6 out of 7 days a week) ... one day treadmill the next yoga.. (remember back in January i was doing it with my dvd player and how well it was going until i got pneumonia and flu and various other complications?? ) Well i am not entirely sure how i did it back then...... but since i have recovered from my various bugs... i just don't seem to have time..........

AND i am feeling overwhelmed.. there just aren't enough hours in the day to get everything accomplished... what AM i doing wrong?? !!!

i am up every morning by 5:30 - it takes me a good 30 minutes to wake up... which i do hunched over the pc (cursing the earlier hour) writing a journal to Sir.. and reading my email as i gulp down a cup of coffee.. then shower and all the other little tasks that must be done before work and out the door by 7:00 ..

Most days i am home between 4:30 and 5......... check in briefly with Sir.. strip out of my work clothes.. read some blogs as i unwind from work.. or have a little rest.. then clean one room and by then it is time to make dinner...... by 8 i am on line to talk to Sir for an hour before i have a bath - and head off to bed by 9:30ish....

and of course there are the days i must do groceries.. or stop at the drugstore .. or talk with my own children..

i need a new schedule .. or a day with more hours in it.. or a job that doesn't wipe me out as much....... or .. or .. or.. maybe a new attitude??


  1. I'm actually at a loss for words. That doesn't happen often.

  2. Anonymous9:27 pm

    I know so much that feeling... For me, weeks are going as fast as day... a month is followed by another before I get accostumed to write it right in my check book...
    I'm not sure it is an attitude problem... maybe the time is flying by way much faster than it used to???


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