Saturday, June 18, 2016
What did you see in the picture above - a duck??? a rabbit?? something else??
Misunderstandings are a bit like the picture -- everyone sees something different - interprets words / phrases/feelings differently.
And misunderstandings can start small -- with different interpretations for a word - flirt becomes stalker - stalker becomes predator ...... feelings that were slightly bruised can spiral totally out of control. Then more words are said -- more feelings are hurt -- and it starts to all spiral out of control.
And usually when I think that things have blown over - cause they should have -- they haven't and they bubble up again..........and I am left feeling confused and hurt and feeling just a tad insane .... cause I don't know what anyone is talking about any more.... and I land up feeling at odds with everyone.
Mostly - MOSTLY - I have been caught in the middle of a misunderstanding..
I say mostly because at the very beginning I did have an opinion - and in my usual brush it off attitude -- I kinda made a joke (ok a bad one I admit it ) but then I figured just let it go -- it's really not about YOU. BUT it did involve two friends -- and I did get caught in the middle.
Have I told you I don't like being in the middle -- and I most definitely do NOT like having to pick sides.
AND I do NOT air dirty laundry in public...... EVER........ I believe in private conversation -- rational conversation -- diplomatic conversation -- cause I really don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.
But people's feelings did get hurt -- and yeah some of it was my doing. People don't believe I was loyal to this party -- or that I didn't say a, b, or c to that person - I feel like people are watching every twitch I make and interpreting it to mean something much more than it means. (I itch I twitch - sometimes it's as simple as that)
Last night was the straw that broke the camel's back. I felt like I was being accused of saying something someone else said. It was suggested to me that everyone have a big sit down discussion - ohhhhhh a whole lot of things were suggested.
AND I said NO
I am DONE
It's over for me
Because at some point trying to convince people that it is a rabbit when they see a duck is impossible.
And the one thing I DID realize -- I can not change anyone's opinion of me -- I am a duck I am a rabbit -- I am wrong. BUT what I can do - I can shut the computer off... I can shut all the noise out ... I can remember my grandmother's words -- the truth will come out eventually - you may not be there to see it happen -- but the truth always wins out.
And my last word - very last word on this whole thing is.............