Back when ........ when I was collared to W .. we had protocols ........ lots of protocols.. I asked for them and I got them....... and then came the day when I didn't "get" them.......
Over the months that W and I were separated - I was like a kid with no rules - I felt light headed with the freedom........... but there were instinctive things I did....... like fetching and carrying and serving..... (much to the chagrin of the two Sirs I was with at the time)
Now W and I are together again - not like before - it's different now. But I sense a desire to return to some protocols from W.......... and there is definitely a strong desire for a return to some protocols on my side.
And in the midst of our building and forming and searching for answers - there is a rather hot debate going on in our little
And because of the style of protocols that W and I had ........before....... I am confused. Because you see the protocols we had - shouldn't - wouldn't and couldn't be imposed on anyone else. In every sense of the word they were private things done between us. These protocols were not offered to every dominant that crossed my path. Nor - do I believe - that W expected every submissive to follow his protocols when meeting up with him.
So I am left wondering what the hell are people complaining about??? I believe some of it is ........ titles. Submissives don't believe they should have to call a Dominant " Master So and So" and I am sorry I tend to go WTF??? if the name of this person (on line name) is "Master So and So" and IF you are introduced to them that way...... why wouldn't you use it. A name is just a name after all. Almost everyone I know calls me "morningstar" even in vanilla settings... even when they know my "real" name. I can't believe it's just about a name...... it all seems too silly to me.
Anyway - moving on to the real point (is there one?? ) of this blog entry. I believe that protocols are things developed between a couple - a collared submissive and her dominant. But that is where I get stuck in the maze and tend to go round and round and round till I get dizzy. I have researched and listened and talked to folks trying to discover what protocols are..... what they look like.... what they sound like.. what they feel like. What I did hear over and over again - was that protocols were somewhat private and developed to fit the needs of the couple. (see my confusion over all this public debate on protocols??)
Then....... a while back ...... I noticed a group in Ottawa was offering a workshop on protocols ........and I mentioned it to W... and we made tentative plans to attend. There will be a 2 hour workshop for submissives on protocols - and at the same time in another part of the club a 2 hour workshop for Dominants. Then there will be a prep time and the submissives will perform a ritual tea service for the Dominants.
Then there will be a play party.
W and I signed up to go (weather permitting) I am hoping to gain some insight into the way other couples do protocols - what the protocols are - and how they are modified to fit with aging bodies that don't perhaps bend and move as easily and gracefully as they used to.
And then this morning W sent me an announcement from another group across the border who are also holding workshops on protocols next weekend. (I am thinking I might like to attend that one too)
And so it seems just when I had reached the point of thinking that I was truly as outdated as bell bottom pants and tie-died tshirts - that I (and W too) were as antiquated as the dinosaur - there appears to be a new interest (in some forums) for a return to protocols.
So.......... W and I will be attending at least one workshop on protocols..... and perhaps having some discussions over what would work for us and what wouldn't. Perhaps we will attend the second workshop next weekend - and have more food for thought. And perhaps ........ just maybe ........... we will come to a consensus on protocols that will work for US........ only us. And then perhaps we will bring more consternation to the community here .......... more raised eyebrows .... more whispers behind our backs ..... because we wish to celebrate this lifestyle in a way that makes us comfortable and happy.
So ........... to all those nay sayers to protocols ........ I have one thing to say.
B I T E ME