Wednesday, December 20, 2006
i have a confession to make..........
Sometimes .. occasionally... i can be a B R A T ! i know i know.. it is such a surprise! ME a brat!! That reputation started a long time ago....... way back when...... someone called me a
S.A.M. (smart assed masochist) Now that one made my blood boil.. made me want to stamp my foot .. made me want to spit tacks.. i am NOT a S.A.M. Sir took great amounts of time to explain to the offending party that NO i was not a S.A.M. i was
a B R A T !!
I had reason to think about that term yesterday...... and i am not sure exactly why but i went to the dictionary to look up the word....... did you know that brat comes from the french "brachet" ........ and means "hound bitch"?? a BITCH??? hang on a minute here... i don't see myself as a ''bitch'' ... brat maybe....... but bitch?? S.A.M.?? i don't think sooooooo!
There is this little devil inside of me... sometimes Sir leaves Himself open.. and i try .. i do try !! to avoid the temptation..... but then .. well .. next thing i know BANG! the brat has struck.. and i am left wondering where that came from!! i will give you a couple of examples.. sometimes Sir will say something and my knee jerk reaction will be to stick my tongue out at Him..... (yeah yeah i know.. how subbie is that!!?) BUT He has cured me of that.. well almost cured me.. by one of two methods.. i either have to suffer Tabasco sauce sprinkled liberally on my tongue (gag gag gag !!) OR He will slap a couple of clothes pegs on my tongue (even worse GAG GAG GAG!!)
Then there was the time Sir had me lying on the bed on my stomach .. and He was beating my ass.. and it hurt..and i was giggling.... (don't ask why!!) and i was facing Sir... my head to His knees kinda of position and i looked up .. and well.. i saw His .. ummm .. "family jewels".. and the saying "i won't hurt You if You don't hurt me" just popped into my head.. and before i could even think about it i was holding the "family jewels" saying that!!! (i am not sure who was most surprised Sir or me!!)
Sir has become very adept at making sure all the t's are crossed and the i's dotted now with me... like when He wrote the latest list of rules (that were almost instantly defunct - don't ask why) one of the rules said (well i read) i was to send an email by 6:30 on weekdays and 7:30 on weekends...... my bratty mind went right.. "an email" ok ok so i will send an email with nothing in the body........ BUT Sir had covered that angle and when i reread the rules it actually said "an email JOURNAL" ...
Once.. after spending some time with a very good Dom and His slave.. i felt off colour a bit.. and i promised Sir i was gonna change.. i was gonna become a much better sub (ummm seems i make that promise rather regularily) and that i wouldn't be a brat anymore !!! Sir told me He didn't want me to change.. the brat was just part of who i was.... which is quite true.. it IS a part of who i am... and thank the gods that be that Sir is happy to have the brat once in a while rear it's devilish lil head..........