Thursday, September 13, 2018
Advocating for Myself........
If you remember -- when I saw the new doctor he decided to wean me off some meds I've been on for the last 15+ years and put me on something new.
I tend to freeze when a doctor is telling me what's best for me..... and like a "good lil girl" I do what he tells me to...... so for the last 2 weeks I have been swallowing these new pills even though in the back on my mind was the question " do I need these?"
The side effects are devastating........ sleepiness is one of them..... and when I say sleepiness I mean the inability to function during the day -- feeling like I am drugged (yeah yeah I know technically I am)
Then there was the low grade headache I had 24/7...... I do NOT do headaches well at all!
Then there was the winner -- nausea !! It got so bad that even though I got hungry I could barely eat because the nausea was so severe.
And the latest one that popped up this week was the "runs" .... I didn't dare leave the house for fear I would need a toilet.
I was going to call the doctor -- but realized he had told me he would be away till the end of the month. I was trying very hard to tough it out
Then the other morning I stopped and went "WHOA -- I need to advocate for myself. These pills are not working -- and on top of that I have no reason to think I need them."
So last night I did not take the pill. This morning I was actually hungry and managed to eat breakfast with no nausea! I still have the low grade headache but am assuming that will disappear too with time. I will see my doctor in a couple of weeks and we can discuss my decision to not medicate something I don't have.