Your body can get used to anything - I know! and it can accept anything as normal. Like my absence of hunger -- at first I felt hungry -- I am human after all -- but I chose to ignore those feelings.... that empty ache in my gut. Soon those feelings were integrated in with all the other feelings one has in a day.... they didn't indicate hunger anymore -- they were just another common sensation.
My body craved human touch (not just in the last year or so -- but for a very long time). At first I would ask for a hug -- or a beating -- just so I could feel human touch. But like with the hunger -- I learned to ignore the feelings -- to chalk them up to some generic feeling. Not important.
The first time that LLF took my hand -- the first time LLF put his arm around me just to hold me close -- was like shock treatment. It dragged the 'generic' feelings out of hiding and put a name to them. Human touch -- I craved it....... and like someone starving I gobbled up every single touch...... reaching out and touching him -- gorging myself.
The very best touch of all is when I crawl into bed beside him - naked - and feel his whole body pressed against mine -- like two puzzle pieces that were meant to fit together.
Touch has become as necessary to me as breathing...
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