Tuesday, October 26, 2010


I had in the works - a BDSM birthday party for myself. Warren and I had found this cute little intimate dungeon that was for rent on weekends. I had invited 18 of our closest most intimate friends to come and help me celebrate. We had even purchased loads and loads of helium filled balloons (well they were to be filled) I had planned the menu - and had some ideas formulating in my head for some fun activities for the evening.

Then I got sick.

This past weekend I kept thinking god only knows how long it will be before I am really UP to partying again.. never mind receiving a really good long spanking (birthday spanks and all that!!)

And so this morning I sent out emails to everyone canceling my birthday party. Honestly it is all I can do to drag myself through my daily routine - never mind think about partying till the wee hours of the morning.

I have mixed emotions about this cancellation - I am sad - very sad - but I am also relieved. I kept saying "I will feel better soon" only I wasn't - feeling better soon. And I have to admit that this might be as good as it gets for a little while. AND "this" just isn't good enough to party.

So now I have cleared my calendar of social events. Freed myself up to come home and lie on the sofa and nap when I am not at work. To feel crappy without having to apologize for it. To just hang on and ride this out to the bitter end.

I am not sure how much I will be writing here in the interim... Life is gonna be rather dull and boring around here........... but when I have inspiration I will come and write......... Otherwise I will curl up on the sofa and nap...... and wait...... for strength and enthusiasm and energy to return.


  1. That just plain sucks. I hope that you feel better very soon, it's no fun to be so ill and drained on your birthday.
    I had something like this happen for my hatching day as well. We had planned a murder mystery (non kinky granted) party in one of the big suites at a fancy hotel. We had been planning this for eight months; the story was set, the characters were lined up, and all we needed to do was book the room and go. Then life got in the way and like a bloody freaking eagle, swooped down and sapped the money we had saved up. Everything we planned and worked for just fell apart.
    So I sympathize greatly and again wish you a very speedy recovery...

  2. Oh I am so sorry your not feeling well and had to cancel your party.

    Hope you feel better soon.


  3. Pacing yourself will be important I'm sure. And not beating yourself up for sitting (or lying) and doing 'nothing'.

    Things I've found helpful (I have fibromyalgia/chronic fatigue so it could well not work for you);
    Footrest - I can often stay out of bed if I can put my feet up
    A little light laptop that I can take to bed.
    Alternative activities with various levels of energy requirements (I guess I always try to have a plan B).

    I don't work so that makes life easier for me.

    I hope things improve for you quickly, and I hope this doesn't come across as 'preachy'.


  4. Anonymous4:11 pm

    Get that gallbladder out!!!! I suffered for years and finally had it out ...the difference is profound. Plus, they do it laproscopicaly now....and you go home the same day. Very easy..Good luck and feel better.



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