Trials and Tribulations

When i was younger......... much much younger... i had long (very long) blond hair.......

Then i got pregnant........ and started to go grey in my 20's (that is not to say eldest daughter was trying or anything - no no not at all.... the fact that every time i went near her she screamed like a banshee.. the fact that anyone else but me could handle her and she would smile and coo.. no no .. that had nothing to do with the fact that i started to go grey)

A couple of years after the birth of charming eldest daughter..i was cleaning the bathroom.. looked in the mirror and saw this "kid" with pig tails looking back...... i kept thinking 'i am 30 now - i should grow up'. So what did i do?? i picked up the phone and called my hairdresser... and demanded that he cut it all off.. yes ALL of it.. give me a perm too.. and maybe cover up the grey streaks.

i came home looking just like my mother !!! even eldest daughter who by now was able to cope with my mothering skills - took one look at me and ran crying away. My personality changed .. with the hair cut.. it was as though the hairdresser had cut off the fun side of me.. (another version of Samson ). Anywayyyyyyyy.. heading towards my 40th birthday - having had another daughter .. who didn't seem to mind my mothering skills - OR - they had improved drastically with the hair cut.... i decided to let my hair grow again....... and to dye my hair completely no more streaks to cover the grey - the grey was winning anyway!! i was gonna try and go back to the long blond young years ......

i didn't actually succeed in going back to the younger years but i did succeed in going back to the long blond hair.

Heading into my late 40's - now remember i have been dying my hair now for just over 15 years.. i realized the hair was getting dull looking.. brassy looking.. time for a change.. and oh wow.. just in time there was a new hair product out that promised to dye the grey AND add streaks all in one sitting......... and at home too.. so i didn't have to sit still at the hairdresser's for hours and hours.

i rushed out and bought it.. couldn't wait to get home and tear open the package and get started.. i was gonna have young hair again.. blond with blonder streaks... YAY !!! and all in a matter of a couple of hours.

When it came time to put the streaks in......i was on a roll.. it was going smashingly well... i used the provided 'comb' to comb the next set of dye through my hair.. in sections... oh this was gonna look gorgeous.. young looking hair again....... but the comb seemed to get stuck in the hair... i tried to unstick it.. and the hair pulled out of my head !!! Did that deter me?? not this stubborn subbie.. i did another section .. and another.. and each time a hunk of hair would come out.

When i washed my hair.. i literally sat in the bathtub and cried.. my hair was quite literally falling out in handfuls.... what had i done!!?? i called my hairdresser in tears... he took me immediately.. He took one look at the mess that was supposed to be my young blond hair.. and shook his head.. Nothing to be done but to cut as much as possible off.. get rid of it.. hair and colouring...

It took nearly 2 years for all the hair to grow back.. and the hairdresser told me i had been lucky .. at one point even he despaired of my hair coming back at all !!! i couldn't colour my hair any more.. i was going to be grey/white and learn to love it... or live with it.. end of discussion.

Since that time i have struggled with my limp thin yucky hair.... i have tried growing it.. i have tried cutting it - short shorter shortest. and i hate it .......... and when i hate something i tend to ignore it.. so for the last few months i have been ignoring my hair...and it had grown quite long (for me). Now youngest daughter's wedding was coming and i scrutinized myself in the mirror... what was to be done with the hair??? Stupid me .. i actually asked her if she would be upset if i cut it for the wedding..

YES !! she would be upset.... so i suffered through the 35 degree heat with pouffy hair that wasn't really all that bad.. except....... i didn't like it.

When the wedding was over.. i turned to Sir and asked Him for permission to cut the locks again !! By now Sir is accustomed to my frantic need every once in a while to DO something with my hair........ He nodded.. and so i went searching for a new 'do' something bouncy and springy and devilish .. and short......something to suit my personality..

Thank god i have a patient understanding hairdresser.. i arrived with a picture.. and declared i want THAT cut...... he studied it... he studied me.. he hummed and he hawed.. he finally said.. "you do realize SHE - pointing to the picture - has thick hair right"?? yes yes i knew that.. just give me that hair cut.......

And he did..

And i loved it.. it is short .. but not that short.. it bounces .. sort of.. and can be sly and devilish if i flip one side just right.......

The interesting thing in this tale is..... every woman that has seen the latest haircut says they love it .. the men are .. ummm.. diplomatic. In fact Cloud asked - after spending an hour or so with me before He got up the nerve to ask i think - "so is this your summer cut?"

Sir commented that i had earrings on one night.. i replied i always wear earrings You just couldn't see them before........

Now the big question ........ have i found the hair cut that i will love?? that i will be satisfied with? have i finally given up on the notion of ever having young blond long hair again??

ummmmmmmm what i will say is.. for now.. i like my new hair........

And in case you are interested in the picture i took to my poor overworked hairdresser.......here it is............. just remember.. she is a red head !!!