Monday, February 25, 2019
Just not me
When I was growing up -- and my parents (well actually my father) were buying my clothes..... they were very conservative -- never included jeans -- and rarely a pair of pants. All my skirts and dresses went to mid knee.... a conservative length.
When I was on my on own -- and shopping for clothes -- I always bought the outfits I knew my father would approve of -- even after he was dead. I always had this weird feeling -- like I was playing dress up. I didn't fully understand that feeling -- thought maybe everyone had the same feeling in one degree or another.
I do have a man's oversized white shirt that I wear with leggings... I have an authentic oriental jacket ..... and when I wear those two outfits I feel comfortable in my own skin. BUT most of the clothes I own make me squirmy -- and out of sorts -- and usually I hate how I look.
I talked to Sir Steve about my wardrobe. I asked him to answer me honestly!! IF I decided to add one or two more eccentric style outfits how would he feel.......
his answer......... 'will they make you feel good about yourself?'
I started researching clothing -- and actually found a designer on line who makes clothes that look (on line) gorgeous! they touch something deep inside me........ I took a deep breath and ordered a couple of items...... a navy blue spring coat nothing spectacular ... BUT I could see it with leggings and hiking boots and wild scarves around the neck...... I ordered it..... and when it came I immediately feel in love and got the stamp of approval from Sir Steve.
I ordered another spring dress that looks a bit like a Picasso painting -- it came and I love it!! I am now looking for accent leggings to wear with it............
I now have a huge list on my 'wish list' of clothing that feels more me and I want steampunk jewellery and nail decals and lots of bright coloured leggings ....... I really do want to live my life using all the crayons in the box !!!
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