Coming to terms...

For the longest time I have been waiting -- holding my breath and waiting -- for life to return to normal.

Normal - in my mind - was at the beginning of our relationship -- lots of private time -- no 'real life' problems -- a fantasy.  Then -- somewhere around declaring our love for each other -- things started to get complicated.  and I kept waiting for life to return to 'normal'.

I've done this before ..... many times .... when my husband started working shift work I kept saying 'when things return to normal'.... after I had my first baby I kept saying 'when things return to normal'.... and slowly the realization would hit that THIS was my new normal and I had to adjust.  I don't 'adjust' easily...... trust me not easily at all.

After this weekend it was really hard to return to 'normal' life around here... I dragged my heels -- I moaned and whined (in my head).  And this week's normal looks like test results with Sir Steve this afternoon -- the lil one's snuffy nose -- twisting my thumb yesterday and today coping with a slightly swollen VERY sore thumb that doesn't want to bend properly......... 

It would be so nice if 'normal' could look like a life with no bumps in the road... no detours.... just sunshine and lollipops ya know.......... but nah life isn't that way .. time to adjust to this new normal........