October 25th

Today is my birthday.

Most years I try and hide from it - ignore it - pretend the 25th of October does NOT happen. 

Mostly because for many many years everyone seemed to forget the day - and it just got easier (so much easier) to pretend - to not expect anything - to not want anything.  

I also didn't want solicited birthday greetings.  They seemed to be polite responses to my declaration "It's my birthday today" ...... and I hate polite / socially acceptable responses.

A few years ago when I was hitting the BIG one.......... I almost ran away - definitely had a mid life crisis over it........ 

Now - this year - I am thinking - besides moving to Kingston to retire (my dream for almost 30 years) I am also doing what I always said I would do - and that is taking early retirement.  


It seems that this birthday isn't so hard to face.  This birthday brings with it a promise of much better things to come.    I did do something right over all these years - I have found my place in the sun (so to speak) and I have found the man I want to spend the rest of my life with....... and after so many years apart - we will be together - finally!  

So yes ........... today is my birthday......... and it doesn't matter that I will spend it alone - it is a good day......... with hope for better ones to come.