bits and pieces

Well baby daughter became engaged over the weekend.. and i swallowed my gut feelings over the whole thing and smiled and tried to be happy for them.... it is very difficult to feel happy when one questions the reasonings behind this engagement........ in my mind this was most definitely NOT a match made in heaven. BUT what good would it do to forbid ?? She is, after all, of age ...... better to stand by her, support her and hope for the best.

The whole weekend left me feeling drained and tired. Sir let me snuggle at His feet for what was left of Sunday.... But then yesterday we were both in shock .. disappointed.. and very annoyed. We had a mailing list for the BDSM community here in the Great White North... and it just disappeared.. no warning .. no communication nothing.. just gone!!! My job had been to make sure it followed all the criteria set out by the host...... (leaving the host nameless to avoid any problems) it was a private mailing list .. by invitation only... everyone had an age in their profile.. there were regular posts... and still POOF it disappeared. i struggle with the idea that what we do....... what i LOVE .. is to some an aberration. Our lifestyle is so much more honest in a lot of ways than vanilla's... nothing is done with out consent.. GOOD communication is a necessity... it is most definitely a partnership.. Dom and sub.. working together to create something special for them.... we don't hurt anyone........ we don't lie or steal or cheat. And people shun us.. because we are different. i keep remembering my grandmother quoting " ye who is without sin caste the first stone".....

Oh wellllllll like the nomads of the desert .. we have been forced to pack up and move on again.. we WILL find another home on the net!

and so the journey continues.. with some speed bumps in the road........