Hands and his wife came for dinner on Saturday. And it was a calmer dinner (small smile) I didn't greet them at the door in a panic because dinner wasn't cooking -- no this time everything was ready and I was calm.
It may just be me -- but it felt like his wife and I worked together to serve him -- to see to his needs and that pleased me so much -- it felt like she and I meshed ya know?? I even asked her for help in the kitchen -- which is pretty rare for me -- again it just felt right to have her by my side - giggling - and preparing - serving him together.
But the most emotional part of the evening for me -- the most symbolic part of the evening - was when she and I were sitting on either side of him at his feet. We both had our hand resting on his thighs -- and her hand moved inches towards mine and took it -- and we sat -- the 3 of us -- chatting while she held my hand.
IF I close my eyes and picture that moment --
our hands joined, resting on his lap -- a circle of love (I like to think in my mushy emotional way)
And when I glanced up at Hands - his eyes were heavy lidded watching us -- and he had this small smile on his face.
I know though -- we still have a way to go to forming a tight trusting dynamic.... and I KNOW only time will build that dynamic - but I have a message to his wife...
'I know what was -- I know the horror, the pain -- and I will NEVER (god forbid) do anything to hurt you...... I only want to add positive good things ("do no harm") to this dynamic --
AND I know it will take time -- I have all the time in the world
Day 5 of the Photo Challenge