Monday, August 29, 2016

The Bond Builds

Hands and his wife came for dinner on Saturday.  And it was a calmer dinner (small smile)  I didn't greet them at the door in a panic because dinner wasn't cooking -- no this time everything was ready and I was calm.

It may just be me -- but it felt like his wife and I worked together to serve him -- to see to his needs and that pleased me so much -- it felt like she and I meshed ya know??  I even asked her for help in the kitchen -- which is pretty rare for me -- again it just felt right to have her by my side - giggling - and preparing - serving him together.

But the most emotional part of the evening for me -- the most symbolic part of the evening - was when she and I were sitting on either side of him at his feet.  We both had our hand resting on his thighs -- and her hand moved inches towards mine and took it -- and we sat -- the 3 of us -- chatting while she held my hand.  

IF I close my eyes and picture that moment --
our hands joined, resting on his lap -- a circle of love (I like to think in my mushy emotional way)

And when I glanced up at Hands - his eyes were heavy lidded watching us -- and he had this small smile on his face.

I know though -- we still have a way to go to forming a tight trusting dynamic.... and I KNOW only time will build that dynamic - but I have a message to his wife... 
'I know what was -- I know the horror, the pain --  and I will NEVER (god forbid) do anything to hurt you...... I only want to add positive good things ("do no harm")  to this dynamic --

AND I know it will take time -- I have all the time in the world




Day 5 of the Photo Challenge



Lilac said...

I'm really glad to hear that your dinner went well. I'm always one of your fans who regularly visits your website. And always glad to hear whenever you're doing well.

I have a few questions since I'm very new to the lifestyle. Please don't think wrong because I really don't know the lifestyle etiquettes and I've never been to any of the events either. Here are some of my questions :
1). Isn't Hands supposed to ask his wife to help you in the kitchen ?
2). Don't you think you may be stronger than who you think you are as in role-wise ? For example , you keep calm and you can control the situation etc ?

Hope to hear from you . Thank you very much .

morningstar said...


I would be delighted to answer your questions -- but would you please explain #2 I am not sure what you mean

"Don't you think you may be stronger than who you think you are as in role-wise ? For example , you keep calm and you can control the situation etc"

Lilac said...

Hi Morningstar ,

Thank you for the reply . Yes, my question meant this :
"Have you ever thought you may be somewhat dominant ?"

morningstar said...


Thank you for clarifying -- I am gonna take a day or so to think about my answer -- and as I know it is gonna be a long one (small smile) I will put it up as a post :)

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