I have major pent up energy -- hell I was so wound up last night I washed the windows till they absolutely sparkled........... Then when the black clouds finally passed and I thought it was safe I went for a walk (damn humidity isn't much better)
I am like a cat on a hot tin roof
I realized I am scared something bad is going to happen -- I feel like I am holding my breathe.......... like I am in limbo for some stupid reason.......
I even resorted to throwing my Chinese Fortune sticks (don't scoff !!) and they said (in a nutshell) that I have nothing to worry about -- that life is running smoothly and will continue to do so -- that friendships will deepen -- that happiness is mine.
So someone tell me please why I am so antsy??
It might simply be that you don't trust the calm and you're waiting for something to ruin it even though there's nothing lurking.
ReplyDeletePartial Lunar eclipse tomorrow night? If you believe in that.
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For me worry about the future has direct correlation to self-protection. If I could just prepare for all possibilities then I won't get hurt. It doesn't work, and is counter-productive, but I still find myself doing it. You have been through a lot in the last few years. Your brain is used to being on high alert. It might take some retraining for it to calm down.