Thursday, August 22, 2013
This may be TMI
In case anyone had any doubts I LOVE W - with my whole heart - and I would do anything to make him happy and contented.
The cute lil saying above pretty much states my belief - blow jobs are for men what flowers are for women......... right??
I am probably the worst giver of blow jobs EVER!!!
Oh there's a whole mess of good reasons (not excuses) for my not being good at blow jobs - in fact W is the first man I have ever willingly wanted to give a blow job to. But because I have no healthy experience of what it should look like/ feel like / sound like ( a cheeky reference to reality therapy for all my teaching friends) every time I try to give him a blow job - I feel like a total clutz - with no natural ability.
Don't most women instinctively know how to give a good blow job??
I have even researched "how to give a good blow job" ........ I have read everything I can get my hands on...... BUT ...... when it comes right down to it... when I get right down to it all that research just breaks up into scattered bits of information in my head. "Keep it wet/lubricated" "Use your hands" "Enjoy it" "Let him know you are enjoying it" " Suction is important" "Tongue is important" "Use your mouth like a vagina" All these useful bits of information rolling around in my head in no particular order.
I try .. I honestly try to give him a good blow job - not amazing I don't even try for amazing.. I would be happy with good.............but my jaw cramps up.. my shoulder hurts.. my body doesn't seem to fit comfortably into a pretzel shape to give him a blow job................ and I always land up using a safe word (would you believe it??!!! me.. ME .. using a safe word for a damn blow job!!) and W is always patient and understanding and says "stop then".............. and I always feel like I have failed :(
Someone out there - someone!!! - must have some hints they can give me to improve my technique - to make me more skilled at giving blow jobs.
Practice makes perfect - and oh god I do intend to practice............ I just need some advice - pleaseeeeeeeeeeee !!!
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