Friday, June 08, 2018
I have been feeling 'fat'...... and when that happens I HATE myself -- lose my confidence -- lose my incentive.
Perception is my biggest enemy. I haven't weighed myself -- or measured myself... I just decided I was putting on weight. It doesn't help that my summer shorts were feeling a wee bit tight... or that my Tshirts seemed to be 'fitting where they touched'.
I was angry with myself. I was discouraged. I decided what did it matter?!
Then I thought about the wedding -- and the dress hanging in my closet.
I thought about how good I felt last summer -- confident -- in my shorts.
I thought about this feeling "fat" ........
So this morning I pushed the reset button -- time to get back on the calorie counting/exercising
First step weigh myself.
I swear I closed my eyes -- I couldn't bare to see how much I had put on........ then I peaked -- then I opened my eyes wide. I stepped off the scales and stepped back on..... cause geeeeez it had to be wrong........
it wasn't -- I have actually lost another pound!
Perception is definitely a problem for me (and probably others).
Life is good when the reality is better than the perception.
This weekend really was the worst of times....... Saturday Sir Steve and I had plans - shopping then lunch out and a movie..........
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