There was one comment made this past weekend that made me uncomfortable.. that brought out the part of me that says... "whoa.. hang on a minute - you don't know ME.. you don't know what i do or don't do"
But that is the risk one takes - isn't it - when one writes from the heart .. but can only give part of the picture.
i had (hell i still have) this burning urge to stand up and say .. You got it wrong.. i am not a bad sub.. i DO serve Sir.. i DO try to please Him.......... but then my mother whispers in my ear saying " me thinks you protest too much". And she would be right.
But for the record.. i have not stopped serving Sir.. i will never stop serving Sir.. i still make His meals.. wash His clothes .. regulate His meals .. watch as He tests His blood.. collect His bloody test strips.. bring Him His pills and drinks.. and all the other little things that a sub does daily to serve and please her Master.
That blog entry was not about that.. it was about life - real life - taking its toll on a relationship.. it was about old bodies giving out and not performing the way they once did.. it was about demands from every sector taking its toll on a relationship.. it was about loving too much..
And it was .. i hoped it was.. about the undying love and devotion i have for this man i call Sir.. and that He has for me....
It was about honesty and the struggles that come from a long term (not long distance) relationship.
It was about communication.. and keeping the lines open ..
It was about listening to each other.. and really hearing what the other person says..
It was about a relationship being worth the work and the struggle to make it near perfect..
It was about life not being a fairy tale........... or about the next Dom just around the corner (or the next sub for that matter)
It was ......... just another page out of the book they call "Life"..........
and that is all i am going to say on the subject..
Sorry mom.. just this once .. i had to protest just a little bit !!