Surprise!

 

Yesterday - just after lunch - there was a knock at the front door.  As I made my way to the door - I was running through my head what deliveries were due...... none!

I opened the door to a gentleman standing there holding a bouquet of flowers.......... I was stunned .... who ? what? why?

The card said "Just because I love you".............. and of course I knew the who.....Sir Steve had picked out an amazing spring arrangement and sent it to me........... 

 

I feel very spoiled.
 

Two Lil Words

I believed we had gotten as far away from D/s as anyone can get..... it made me sad at first - then I just - kinda - came to terms with it ya know?  But it left an empty place inside....... 

Last night I was joking around - being a bit bratty - and I said "Yes Sir" ........ two lil words.... and he whispered to me ' I love hearing those words'.

Who knew?

A Moment in Time

He reaches down to kiss me...... hello - goodbye - just because - it doesn't much matter the reason.......... 

As his lips touch mine his hands go round my body and grab my ass...... pulling my body tight against his.... feeling his cock against my body -- but mostly feeling his hands squeezing my ass....... 

This grabbing makes my knees go weak and my heart pound...... and I want him as much today as I did the first day his hands grabbed my ass.

Just a Moment in Time

He was in the shower -- I was lying in bed watching Trevor Noah on Netflix...... relaxed and sleepy

He climbed into bed - between my legs - forcing them open - forcing me open to him....

I wasn't really in the mood - too many emotions over this past week -- just not feeling it......... 

He didn't care -- OR -- he knew better....

He pushed into me -- it was dry and ouchy -- and in a weird way very hot!!  

Feeling him in me the world seemed to melt away..... it was just him inside me -- feeling the length and breadth - feeling the head swelling -- everything fitting tight....

Feeling my lower belly tighten and my body responding without thought or prompting...

One orgasm after another...

And then him lying down beside me - behind me - pulling me in tight against him - his lifting my leg over his hip - thrusting back into me -- my legs pulled in tight to my belly -- ass against him -- him slamming into me -- 

My hand against the wall - pushing back against him -- moaning loud - trailer rocking

Briefly -- for a minute -- I wondered what the neighbours must be thinking - wondering if they could hear my moans............... 

Finally he pulls out and pulls me tight against him -- he grabs my breast tightly - I turn the soft light out - 

And we sleep.

 

The Ritual

He stops my bedtime chatter with "it's sleeping time now".

I roll onto my right side and wiggle backwards against his body... I lift my left arm and hold it up until.......... 

his hand slides across my body and grabs my left breast firmly tightly in his big hand.

He whispers "good night -- I hope you sleep well -- I love you".  I whisper back "see you in the morning -- I love you too -- muchly" 

As I start drifting off to sleep -- I feel the warmth of his body against mine -- his cock resting against my bum -- his hand firmly holding my breast ...... and I know my world is right -- and I sleep.

Christmas Memory

Christmas is a time of memories.......... often softened by the years and the glow of Christmas candles....... 

There was one Christmas Eve -- I was in the kitchen making dinner for the family.  My parents were down visiting which was always a stressful time for me...... everything had to be just perfect ya know?!

I heard my father's voice talking softly.... I peaked my head around the kitchen door and saw two pairs of feet sticking out from under the tree...... My Dad's and my eldest daughter's (who was around 2 or 3 at the time)  

He was telling her to look for the fairies in the tree....... I don't remember anything else he said because I was dumb struck by the fact he was building a fairy tale .. and making memories.  I was seeing a new side of this man I called 'Dad' 

Since then I can't see a Christmas tree without looking for the fairies that dance in it's branches.

May warm Christmas memories bless your holidays.............. 

A special moment

There's a moment in time when we crawl into bed...... snuggling against each other ... whispering in each other's ear........ 

And my hand slides down and grasps hold of him..... and I stroke it (almost absentmindedly) and it stirs - like it is alive -- and grows bigger and harder in my hand.... It always -- each and every time -- amazes me ...... It is a very sexy minute ... makes my heart soar... and my knees weak... 

Life is good when early morning coffee is accompanied with a "moment in time".

Fist Pump

I collapsed into the pillows and whispered "I think you broke me" ... and he laughed and answered "broke eh?? well then ...... no more sex for you"  

And I whimpered.

The next night he whispered in my ear -- 'still broken?' and I whispered back "no definitely not still broken" ........... 

And he took me back to bed.......... 

my memory has only disjointed words to describe it....... 
teasing....... needing.......... pounding....... and mouth screaming into the pillow ... hands grabbing the bars...... arching back....... more pounding.... finger nails biting into my hips......

No not broken.......... 

AND........

 He's back - better than ever !!!

It's All in My Head

February brings out the worst of my 'seasonal affective disorder'  

Yesterday I texted Sir Steve and asked if he would 'make love' to me ...... I didn't want 'kinky run around the house naked ropes and spanks' sex -- I wanted him to hold me and make love to me. 

And we did -- make love that is........ and it was good -- not scream the roof off good -- not tears streaming down my cheeks good -- but it was good.

When I assumed we were finished -- and I started to wiggle over so he could snuggle in beside me -- he said "We're not finished yet!" 

4 little short clipped words and my world changed..... my knees went weak -- my belly tightened -- my heart pounded.

And he claimed me and made me his -- again -- and I knew I was safe and I belonged and the world was calm...... and I was centered.

AND it was more than good!

Loving Tears

Where his hands touch - my skin is on fire.... my heart races...... my body arches.... I crave the taste of his skin.  He fills me up -- and it almost hurts -- the need, the love. 

In that moment the world stops and I am his completely and totally.  

and a tear of joy slides down my cheek .......for this man touches my very soul and completes me.

Whimpers in the dark

Whispering in the dark "I need you - you know -- need you badly"

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Later ...........He was propped up over me -- his eyes staring down at me

I was holding my breath -- feeling his cock inside me -- not moving -- just plusing 

Heat building 

Biting my lip 
Wanting to feel that first thrust so badly

His eyes smiling at me 
Knowing what I needed / wanted
BUT waiting - making me wait for that exquiste moment............. 

Then he plunged deep inside of me 
Making my eyes open wide with the intensity of the feelings that washed over my body 
And through my body

My brain screamed 'thank you thank you " over and over 
As finally the orgasms hit 
My body arching off the bed to meet his thrusts

And his eyes - the same - staring down at me -- 
holding my gaze
Until the tremors slow down
And my body is just a shivering twitching clump of clay in his hands

Lastly
He rolls off me and pulls me in tight against his chest
soothing me with soft touches 
and even softer kisses
 

Won't break

Sometimes -- inside me -- there is a beast.

A beast who wants to submit to your will -- your primal needs.
A beast who wants to surrender completely to you...
 
I won't break -- I promise 

Take me ..... reach deep inside me and bring out the masochist that has been buried for such a long time.

I won't break -- I promise 


Wrap your hands in my hair
I won't break -- I promise 

Bite me
I won't break -- I promise

Put your hands around my neck 
I won't break -- I promise

Use me
I won't break -- I promise

 
 

I need you -- have waited for you for such a long time

I won't break -- I promise.

Lingering

My body and mind sated - the quiet settles over the apartment.  

The loneliness settles in.  I miss him already and wonder how I will manage until the next time.

I climb into bed feeling alone......

And he is there -- his scent wafts upwards from the pillows - I smile and pull the pillow closer -- snuggle it tight and sleep comes 

with his scent holding me close.