I have had more sex in the last 8 weeks than in the last 8 years! Sir Steve is insistent that all my wishes be granted in the bedroom -- all of them! many times every weekend !!
Can I say he's good ..... no wait -- more than good -- he's the BEST lover a girl could want. Attentive, teasing, tempting, and (cheeky grin) long lasting!
BUT
(you knew there had to be a 'but' right?? come on! you must have known!)
I have become spoiled -- and it is truly an alien feeling for me -- especially in the bedroom. and I don't like the feeling -- weird eh? It is too easy to fall into the trap of being egocentric -- of forgetting there are two of us in this relationship......of taking and taking -- and not giving.
Sir Steve tells me over and over how much he loves watching my orgasms -- watching my reactions to them... that it pleases him.. and I am nothing if not a 'pleaser' ........ but I worry it isn't enough -- for him or for me.
For the first time in my life I want to please a man physically - completely. I want to look into his eyes -- I want to suck his cock and see every vein - every little pulse - I want to do all the wanton things I have only ever dreamed of.........
It's a funny thing -- I have spent years in and out of therapy trying to overcome so many hang ups -- so many insecurities -- and one man opened up my world -- told me it was ok to feel the things I was feeling -- who gave me feelings I have never experienced before -- and in just 8 short weeks I have made more progress towards healing then years in therapy.
It boggles my mind how much the love of a good man can heal the mind and body.
And that is indeed a VERY good thing!
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