blessed release

Yesterday Sir posted a comment to my blog "Pissy Mood"... He wrote:

Don't worry readers, littleone is going to get it!!!

she will be writing about it later, trust Me...

Sir,Owner of morningstar

and as He said i would write about it.. here i am dutifully posting what happened.........

When Sir arrived i was lying on the sofa in a darkened living room with my eyes closed because the headache i had been fighting all morning had won. When i heard Him come in the house i thought i was going to cry.. i wanted Him to leave.. how could i be His submissive with a headache this big??!!! Funny thing was though.. Sir didn't even stop to talk.. He walked straight downstairs and came back with the dog whip in His hand.. He had me kneel on the floor leaning on the sofa and started right in on my ass.... By the third or fourth stroke my ass was pushing back to welcome the strike of the whip......... and i heard a soft moan coming from deep within me.... Sir didn't intend to leave me propped all comfy against the sofa though.. He soon ordered me up and downstairs.. i went .. sniffling and feeling emotions bubbling up to the surface... wanting to run away and wanting to run down those stairs and string myself up!!! (go figure!)

Sir strung me up with virtually no talking... leaving me in my mind set.. and picked up the toughest flogger we have.. the silver handled sting of a thousand bees flogger and proceeded to go to work on my ass and my thighs.... In my head i heard myself saying harder faster.. there is nothing YOU can give me that can hurt as much as the pain i am feeling inside.... and He did.. and in this beginning stage He asked me (as He always does ) "who loves you?" and i couldn't answer Him.. there were no words in my head.. He would finish with one toy and throw it down and reach for the next one.. He would walk around me and whip at my breasts .. my belly.. my pussy.. my sides.. the only words spoken were orders to "spread your legs wider" and then more pain... i was crying.. great heaving sobs... not from the pain He was giving me.. but all the unhappiness that had built up inside..... (and i know this is something many of you will just not understand... but it is part of who i am.. when the pain gets too much inside.. i crave exterior pain.. pain that on my best days i would never be able to handle.. i need the release the tears give me)

It began to feel like i was caught up in a wind tunnel... the pain was circling my body.. breasts belly sides pussy ass thighs .. there wasn't an inch of my body that wasn't being hit... and i was crying.. everything was bubbling out of me.. and then Sir was behind me pulling my body close to His .. melding it to Him.. and He was stroking me.. and then the pain again.. and then the order to "spread your legs farther apart" and i felt His fingers teasing me.. opening me.. i was moaning.. it hurt.. it never hurts.. but hurt yesterday.. i was as dry as dry could be.. but He coaxed me open and hidding just inside was this spring of wetness that poured down my legs as He thrust in and out of me.. and then before i came He pulled His fingers out of me and coated my ass and thighs in my wetness and picked up the next toy and started with the pain again......

Now my senses were registering smells and wetness and pain... it was as though my musky scent was filling the playroom... my sobs were coming faster and .. the pain.. the pain was ever present. Then the wheel was used .. up and down my back.. caressing my "hot spot" on my lower spine.. then wheeling away and moving over my ass .. down my thighs.. up my inner thighs, around my pussy.. up my belly and down my sides and across my breasts and nipples making me jump and dance and cry .. even as i held my breath for fear the points would puncture my skin.......

The Gorean whip was brought down and used with all the strength that Sir could muster .. i could feel it lick at my ass.. wrap around my thighs and bite into the soft tissue on the inner side...and then i felt Him attach the bull dog clamps to my pussy lips and the whip was smacking against them.. making them bounce and pull and tug... and then it stopped.. it just stopped and as the lights were lowered He said " now you will rest and enjoy" and He was gone .. leaving me to hang from the chains with my legs spread wide .. the pulsing pain from the clamps collapsing all logical reason in my head.. and i was climbing on top of that pain.. and floating on it.. And then the lights were back up and almost simultaneously another strike .. what was used is a great mystery to me.. all the toys had started to meld together.. all the pain was melding into one great wave i was riding.......

and then i felt His body pressing against me again.. holding me close .. bringing me back to Him.. and again the order "to spread your legs" and again His fingers sliding (easier this time) into me and pumping hard and fast into me.. making my juices explode out of me.. but still no orgasm.. more wiping the wetness from his hands across my ass ... and more pain.. whirling around me..

Then i heard the words "who loves you" and this time i could stammer .. "my Sir loves me" and then the "how do you know He loves you" and my stammered soft mumbled answer "because He beats me" ....... and then His fingers were back inside of me and He asked me "do you want to cum" and i didn't know. i couldn't answer.. i was sobbing with the release and He was working me.. touching that secret spot inside me.. coaxing me.. teasing me.. and i could feel the need erupt suddenly out of me .. and i barely gasped out the request to cum before the orgasm was rippling over my body exploding like fireworks in the sky.....

Then i was down .. and curled up on my pillow on the floor upstairs and Sir was covering me with my snuggly and wrapping me up in His arms and holding me safe and tight.. and once again.. all was right with the world...

Later we went out for dinner.. and talked about kids and problems.. and life.. and i was calm and ready to listen...... i was safely wrapped up in His love .. in His caring.. in OUR world together.........