Friday, June 26, 2009

Excited..

What a difference a day makes ya know??

ok ok so it is more than a day.......... but still i am so excited............

First off.... a fellow blogger and i are working out plans to meet........ to meet face to face !!! over coffee next week.... she will be in town and i will be on summer holidays.. and coffee is calling............. i can hardly sit still...........

Second... i only work a half day today and will be leaving from work to go to Sir's for the weekend.. my bags are packed - including the lap top - and by mid afternoon i should be safely tucked away in His house.......

Thirdly......... well..... this one is a mix of emotions..
i have applied for a transfer to a new school............... a tough school (like mine isn't tough now!!)
i have been making lists.. pros and cons.. ya know what i mean...... the lists you make when you can't really make up your mind......... cause i wanna go.. but i wanna stay........ i am the girl who HATES change......... yet i applied for a big change.......... what the hell was i thinking???

i will be leaving "my kids" behind..
but i will for sure find new kids that will need my special talents......

i will be leaving behind the problem staff members who are driving me f--king nuts !!! bitch bitch bitch is all they seem to do........ and then despite what i ask.. they do what they want anyways........ i am leaving behind the blow ups and the melt downs and the back stabbing.........
but i don't know what i will be walking into....... my grandmother always used to say "better the devil you know than the one you don't" and i hear there is little programming or direction in the staff i am going to .........

it will be a 10 minute drive on city streets - so much closer to home.. even - maybe - allowing me to run home during the day for lunch and a rest...... and no more highway driving in the dead of winter before the sun rises..

BUT everything is just about ready for the new year at my school - i have done all the ordering.. the registrations are 90% completed - my staffing is done - i was getting a new lap top and a smart board.. i could do the job blind folded.. i love my new principal... i was thinking i could quite literally take the whole summer off knowing everything was ready - even 90% of my programming for next year.......
in the new place - god only knows what is ready and what isn't.. what i am walking into and what i am not walking into... i most definitely won't have a new lap top or a smart board.. i will be on my toes.. challenged .. every single minute of every single day - till i get the hang of things.. names.. kids.. rooms.. routines...
i have 5 years left till i retire.. WHO opts for a new challenge with 5 years to go.. don't most people coast to retirement??

WHAT AM I THINKING??

and worse than that... why i am worrying NOW.. i don't even know if i will be considered for the job never mind get the job !!

Anyway............ because you made your way through my angst to this point.. i think you deserve a prize.. and i did promise i would get back to posting to the "other" blogs.. so go check out the Photojournal - i have posted some summer pictures...


4 comments:

Blade said...

You seem so much happier! I'm glad for you!

selkie said...

our lives truly do reflect cycles sometimes - up and down and around ... certaintly I think with your new mindset its not a bad time for a change. We can ALL get into a rut at times, feel too comfortable - even when there are many things we don't LIKE - to make change. I think change is inevitable - I think it can be a GOOD thing - I am keeping fingers crossed the new job comes through and you find new vistas to explore...

and tell your gran to be quiet and I'll leave yhou with my adage "a change is as good as a rest" - it revitalizes in other words!

anna said...

It's wonderful to see you excited like this. You sound so energetic! Send some of that energy my way, please. :D

drakor66 said...

Change is good