contemplating

i am sitting in a lovely lil hotel room... listening to the Sunday morning news on the television.... feeling warm and safe and cozy (and sorta dreading the drive back to reality in a few minutes)


We have had fun up here in our capital city... despite the cold -30 wind chill... my breasts are marked and my ass is sore..

if i can manage to organise my thoughts i will write a "Monday Morning Report" tomorrow, cause it was all a tad weird last night - mostly in my head - not necessarily in real life..

BUT for now i will sit in our lovely lil hotel room listening to the Sunday morning news, and watch the neighbours across the courtyard start their Sunday.

TA !! DA!!

did you realize it has been 9 months since i wrote on the fictional blog??? i couldn't believe it........ nine months is a long period of writer's block...........


BUT

it's over!!

As of 9:50 this morning there is a new segment to Behind the Screen

Now if life could just imitate fiction ..... wow............ (ok ok so that's my opinion)

Enjoy..........

Tasks and more tasks

my list of tasks is fast growing........ remind me someone how much i love when Sir gives me tasks........... PLEASE!!

First off Sir was out on Monday night and He sent me a "task"............ write a story and have it posted by Thursday night......... (thanks so much to the anonymous commenter who suggested i write again!! ughhhhhhhhh)

ok ........ hang on a minute......... that is only one task........ and i am sure i had more......... didn't i ??

i could be in BIG trouble now !!

oh well........... writing a story is a big enough challenge....... and here it is Wednesday mid morning........ and i haven't written one word.. not one !! (i am praying for inspiration)

oh......... seeing as i can't remember the other tasks.. i will confess to you all instead....

Sir told me last evening that we were going to Ottawa on the weekend. (colour me surprised!!) And that announcement was a definite indicator to how vanilla we have become.. (ok ok maybe how vanilla *i* have become) ....... because i got all indignant and bent out of shape because Sir hadn't told me.

memo to self - i am sub........ i do NOT need to know these things.... i just need to be ready ........

i feel like i am bobbing in water over my head and sinking fast............. i really do need to get my act together............

First step - write write and write some more...............

So until Thursday pm .......... i will have my mind glued to this story i am supposed to be writing......... check back then............. either i will have had success or i will be in the dog house - spelled P U N I S H M E N T!!

Dreams

i had this really weird dream last night.........i don't dream much......... at least i don't remember them........ but last night's dream was as real as if it had happened.. and i still remember it this morning..............

Like with all dreams it was disjointed and stopped and started.. had no beginning and no end............

Sir and i were at a strange house...... it seemed to be a play party........ at least i felt it was a play party......... and Sir and i were standing around when this 'sexless' person (no features etc) came to speak to us......... and asked Sir if He would like to have a whooping. AND............ Sir said "yes" !!!??? He left with this person..........leaving me alone.. and i felt the tears and panic rising..... cause how was i gonna relate to Sir after He had a spanking??? how could He be my Sir if He was getting spanked??? i was panicked.

Then a Master, Sir and i know, showed up at my side with another man - whom i did not know... and they decided to bind my breasts. When i looked they had bound my nipples with this ugly florescent green cord and my nipples were sticking out soooooooooooo far they looked mutated. And when i looked closer they had wound this same ugly green cord around my waist. i seemed to get lost in the rope...........

And then i woke up......... and all i could think of was ............ did Sir really enjoy being spanked??!!

Now is that weird or what???!!

Any ideas what it means???

peekin' in

ok .... so i haven't been around for a while...... and i have had some inquiring emails to see if i am still around.......

so today i thought i would post a quickie and let you all know i am alive and breathing.......

so i went looking for a pic to illustrate "peekin in" and found the above picture which made me grin... i love some of the polar bear pictures that are floating around on the net... in fact i have a really sweet one of a mama bear carrying baby bear on her back across the frozen tundra from last Christmas - hanging above my desk in my office. (ok - so how was that for a run on sentence??)

Anyway back to the point.......... peekin in to let you all know i am alive

It has been a month or two of busy-ness.....

let's see .. new baby grandson has been "off colour" since Christmas - which was worrisome for all involved (he does seem to have turned a corner and no one is any closer to really knowing what was wrong)

then there was the announcement of the closure of my school (and for those of you who don't know our system - hell even some of us don't know our system - i can't bump anyone..... despite having the 4th longest years of service)

then on the same lines there have been all sorts of rumours of what the Board is going to do with me...... and i am trying very hard not to listen to the rumours.. or to give them any credance - until i hear officially........ which means i don't think about it much during the day - but do think about them when i wake at 3 in the morning.........

and of course there are the every day normal routines that have to be gotten through.. from gangs in the school yard.. to a young student who just lost her leg to
bone cancer.... paper work, registrations for next year ... my own health issues - and some much needed time to refocus and realign.......

and for the one commenter who suggested i continue writing Behind the Screen.. not as easy as it seems.. i have to feel it in my heart.. see it in my minds eyes.... (which is a polite way to put " i really need to feel horny and sexy and used and abused" and i don't) so don't look for any installments for a while ok??

So ......... i am alive and getting well.,... and who knows i may be up and writing regularly again soon........

For today i have the grandkids and my kids coming over for birthday celebrations........ so i am off to blow up balloons and ice cakes and wrap presents...