Summer fun..

For some unfathomable reason.. i have been waiting for my summer holidays to begin......... (school finished last friday!!) i think having the renovator in all week ripping the hell out of the bathroom has made me feel .. stifled. AND i am still on a schedule.. i am up bright and early every morning .. showered and dressed and the coffee on by 7:30 - that is NOT summer vacation !!!

Yesterday i had to go out and run some messages...... and i asked Sir if i might have permission to go to the second hand book store and buy a bagful of books. My summer vacation is rated excellent when i have spent it curled up in my secret garden.... under the umbrella...... reading. And this year .. between one thing and another, i really hadn't stocked up on any summer reading. Sooooooo i went.. and i browsed.. and i teetered to the cash with my arms full (absolutely totally full ) of books. While the girl was sorting through them all.. (and joy of joys.. it turned out for every 3 books i bought i got one free!!) i was looking through a bin of discounted books ......... and what to my surprise did i find at the bottom of the pile....... but a book called "House Rules". It really caught my eye because the other night Sir and i were chatting with the new lil subbie.... and we had been discussing Sir's house rules. Flipping through the pages i realized i had stumbled on a piece of BDSM fiction. wow !!! and it was only $1.76....... i couldn't believe my good luck.

And so today..... while the rain pounded against the windows.. and the renovator guy was pounding away in the bathroom.. i curled up in the big comfy chair and started reading "House Rules"......... ( i have to say their house rules are more interesting and more fun than Sir's !!!)

The renovator announced that he intends to have the bathroom finished before he leaves tomorrow (god why does that sound ominous??) The sun has peaked out.. and i am thinking by next week....... maybe just maybe it will feel like summer vacation !!!

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And to celebrate the start of summer vacation i have posted - on the photo journey - some summer fun pics. Enjoy

scorpio

Horoscopes intrigue me... and yeah i know they are usually wrong.. and anyone who reads them / believes in them is a little bit crackers.. and "what sign are you" went out decades ago...........

Maybe my superstitious side comes from my paternal grandmother.. god she was superstitious... she went regularly to the "gypsies" to have her fortune told.. and i was always being inundated with things like not opening an umbrella in the house.. a bird flying into a closed window meant a death in the house.. if the palm of your right hand itches you will receive money .. if it is your left hand you will owe it.. if your feet itch you will walk on strange ground..

Whatever the reason i am a sucker for horoscopes and readings and tarot cards..
and of course i found this site which gives you general horoscope traits.. and i couldn't resist........... here is mine............

and here is Sir's.........






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and for those of you who didn't wait for the clock to be almost ready to turn from July 1 to July 2nd.. the new post to the fictional journey is up and ready for your reading pleasure...

a little this.. a little that

Yesterday morning the renovation guy arrived... and the work on my bathroom started.... i meant to take a picture of the ugly vanity that was there....... of the yellowish/goldish sink and tarnished brass fixtures....... but it was such a relief to know they were going that i forgot.......

It took pretty much the better part of the day to rip out the cabinet.. the medicine chest.. the wall to wall mirror and fluorescent .. yes i said fluorescent.. light that hung above the mirror.... to expose the pipes and the .. you won't believe this.. the PINK tiles that were under the cabinet........PINK!!! Everything was dug up removed and plastered over.. and i was left with the picture above at 4:30 when he left.........

i can not imagine now.. can not see in my mind's eye... what the new vanity.. new mirror and new cabinet will look like.. i do know there will be some problems.. like the drainage pipe that runs along the wall exposed ....... (can't be sunk into the wall as it is an outside wall ..and here in the Great White North - we tend to like our water pipes inside the house) the damn light fixture wires that are most definitely not in a good spot.. and some government code says they can not be plastered over...

For now i can shower in the dark..... brush my teeth in the kitchen (or the shower if i wish) and pee in the dark...... no electricity into the room...... and only water to shower and flush............ the upstairs is upside down - what a mess !!! and god only knows how long this is gonna take.. the clock is ticking.. the wedding is exactly 11 days away.... and i have the 'girls' sleeping over on the friday.. a house full of women to get showered and made up and dressed before the wedding......... the pressure is definitely on !!!!

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oh yeah.... and because my dear friend Buffalo is chomping at the bit to get a look at this month's story........ and emailed as the clock turned the day from Monday the 30th to Tuesday the 1st... and because i am SUCH a brat... the next installment of the fictional journey will be posted today....... but i am not saying when!!! it is written and waiting in the gate......... waiting for the right time.... (the kid in me is going "nah nah nah !!!")

Dreams do come true

IF you read me regularly then you will remember a couple of days ago i wrote about my recurring dream................ well i am here to say that dreams CAN and do come true......

The weekend didn't exactly start off with much promise...... Friday night through Saturday late afternoon.. not much of anything happened.... the hurt and pain inside me was growing - into monster proportions........ i was scared.

Saturday we had a munch / play party to attend....... i knew we wouldn't be attending the play party due to other obligations......... but in the car driving to town Sir said that there was a session in the works for me when we got home from the munch........ and again on Sunday.

Best laid plans......... by the time we got home from the munch i was pooped.. it was late.. and bed was the only thing on the agenda. i laid in the bed listening to Sir watching television downstairs.. and cried........ cried myself to sleep - if the truth be told.

BUT Sunday morning......... there was no question that Sir was fixed and ready to do battle with the monster inside of me... no question at all....

i was hung from the chains.. and with the first swing of the first flogger the anger inside of me burst...... i was not going to make a sound.. and god help Sir if He asked "who loves you?" He wasn't gonna like the answer... But He didn't ask.. He just moved from flogger to flogger to Helmut's devil toy .. to the leather whippy... to the vegan whip (which felt like a fine strand of wire slicing my ass)... to the circus whip.. working His way down the wall of 'toys'... throwing the used toy on the floor...... moving on to the next.. and still i didn't make a sound...the tears flowed freely down my face.. my nose got stuffed up and snotty.... until... the monster started to fade.. and Sir started to fill me up with everything i craved/needed... until i was hanging limp from the chains.. crying .. with relief.. with love.. with exhaustion..........


(Sir even used the much dreaded much loved tack paddle)



The toys were left in a heap and i was put in my chair and wrapped up in my blanket... and Sir stroked me and loved me...


After lunch........ when the fog had lifted some.. Sir brought out the needles .. the zipper .. and the small cane bundle........ with me lying on the floor at His feet the needles were inserted.... the zipper attached to my ass... and the cane bundle worked some more magic on me.............. and when i least expected it.. the zipper was yanked off... the needles were removed.. and i was flipped over for a good pussy whipping...........




When all was done.. i curled up at Sir's feet and slipped into an endorphin induced nap......... feeling full.. contented.. and knowing *i* am back...... after 6 long hard months.... i am back !!!!

Dark of night

When the night has fallen and all the world is still and quiet.. i slip into my bed to sleep..... but sleep has not been my friend this week... i have tossed and turned and walked the floor - more than i did when the girls were babies...

BUT when i have slept..... i have had the most vivid dreams...... played over and over in my head.. until i can relive them in the daylight.......... (and drive myself nuts i might add)

i am in the dungeon..... hanging by my wrists from the chains in the ceiling.. i am naked and goose bumps cover my skin....... i am blind folded and can only hear Sir walking around the room.. hear the music being turned on .. loud.....

i feel His hands brush down my back over my ass and between my legs .. forcing them wider apart....... He whispers in my ear..... words i can't make out in my dream.. but my heart still pounds louder and harder.......

And then it starts... flogger i think ....... stinging biting into my ass .. wrapping around and catching soft spots on the front of my pelvic bone making me dance and squeal and twist and turn... But He doesn't stop...... the flogger continues to bite into my flesh.. over and over ... and i am cursing Him and crying and saying it is enough i can't take it.. i am angry at Him.. stamping my foot... cursing that it has been weeks and no pity from Him .. my mind and body can not keep up with the speed .. with the strength.. with the pain..

The flogger is tossed aside for a tawse.. and the slaps burn and hurt.. and i shout at Him.. 'how dare He???!!' my mind tells me to stop it.. to end it.. to run .. to hide.. but my mouth only continues to complain and bitch and moan........

After the tawse there is the whip.. and cuts and stripes form across my ass... i am crying.. heart broken .. He .. my beloved Sir.. is hurting me.. and not stopping.. and it isn't supposed to be like this... and i am still fighting Him..

And the whip is tossed aside for the crop.. and now the crop goes to work on my ass.. and then across my breasts.. and between my legs.. and i am breathless.. and crying still... and feeling limp...

Sir stands behind me.. moving in close.. i can smell His smell.. i can feel Him.. bare chested pulling me close into His body..feel the sweat running down His body.. running His hands across my flesh.. reaching round.. grabbing my tits.. squeezing them.. pinching the nipples.. but all i feel is Sir's body against mine.. holding me tight.. holding me close.. holding me safe......... His hand slides down between my legs and i moan.. i am dry.. i am too disjointed to feel my pussy...... it hurts damn it.. i hurt..

He steps back from me .. and pulls my ass back towards Him.... commanding me to spread my legs .. and i do.. i have no choice.. no will.. and He teases me.. making me wet .. a little bit.. and then.. BANG.. He rams into me.. finding the spot.. rubbing it.. feeling the muscles tighten so tight around Him........ and He continues to tease.. till we both smell the musky scent.. hear the slop slop sounds as He moves in and out of me........

And then it stops.. and i feel the cold wooden paddle against my ass.. i hear Sir tell me to count.. 1 .. 2... 3... 4... 5 relatively gentle hits .. AND THEN....... the paddle hits full force.. sending me flying as far across the room as my arms will allow......

Once i catch my breath .. i move back.. bent slightly .. offering my ass to the paddle.. and again.. 1..2...3...4... 5 AGAIN .. full force the paddle sends me whirling the full extent of my arms.. and again we wait while i catch my breath and move back into position........ over and over till i am hanging limp from the chains.. no more tears.. no more curses.. no more anything...... except my world is filled with Sir's scent.. with Sir's force.. with Sir....

And then i am down .. on the floor ... half kneeling.. half lying.. kissing His feet .. thanking Him..........

And i am home again.........