Sunday Sentiments

Quietness

So many good things have happened around here this week -- it boggles my mind!!  And truthfully I am almost afraid to put them into words in case they vanish like a puff of smoke............ 

BUT........

Last year my eldest daughter sat here with the lil one and I colouring........ I watched and thought I would never have the patience to do that!!
Fast forward one year and I asked eldest daughter if she had something I could colour over the summer............ God bless her !!  she brought me a huge colouring book (mandalas) and beautiful coloured pencils.  This past week with the lil one we have been colouring.  Today the lil one went back to her mom and I pulled the colouring out and have been sitting colouring ever since.

I may have found a way to help with the emotions/stress/anxiety....... this is sooo soothing (though it probably helps I am doing it out on the deck in the beautiful sunshine with bird songs to soothe )

Life is good when you can use the whole box of colours 

Early Morning

It's still my favourite time of day....... early mornings.  The world is still sleeping and quiet.... the birds are singing - greeting the new day -- the sun is peaking over the horizon.  The lil one still asleep..........

The weekend was busy and hot -- damn hot!!  We managed to get in a day of mini putt and picnic lunch and a trip to the farmer's market -- but we were all toast by the time we got back to the campground.... well done toast!

Then yesterday we were in jeans and sweaters.... WTF?!  I froze all day..... and it was cloudy and not so nice a day ....... BUT I won't complain as the weather (though hot) has been wonderful.

Today the lil one and I are off to the city to shop - run messages - and do laundry..... a busy day.  This weekend (after the lil one goes back to her mom) Sir Steve and I have a rib fest to go to........ and surprise surprise we are going on a 'date' - brunch on Sunday. 

Life is good when the sun shines and the birds sing

Sunday Sentiments

Sorting Things out

It officially has been 6 weeks since I took my last dose of the meds I have been withdrawing from ..... the doc warned me this last withdrawal could be my worst and the longest.... he told me to hang on and he would see me at the end of 8 weeks.

This past week or so I have suddenly been aware of my thought processes or my emotions.... it's pretty difficult to explain........ just suddenly I would 'see' something clearly ......... For 20+ years I had had a drug that masked any number of my emotions... and then as fast as that clear thought would appear it would disappear -- it is driving me crazy !!!

This week I took a stand against the lil one's grandparents blatantly disregard for the rules around here -- I didn't think 'what will happen if they get mad at me' - I couldn't care less..... I took pictures of their infraction and sent them to the owners of the campsite (we live way in the back in the old section and the owners don't wander around here much) 10 minutes later the owner showed up and dealt with the infraction in no uncertain terms. I didn't gloat or anything like that -- I just felt better cause you don't - DO NOT - break rules.

Since then I have been doing some thinking -- where the hell did that come from??  That's when I realized I have been reacting to a number of things differently -- like I am seeing things without a fog in front of my eyes........... it's just plain weird.  

The doctor had asked me - before I went on this drug - how did I react to situations - who remembered?? It was over 20  years ago.  This weekend I remembered I stopped reading newspapers and watching the evening news more than 30 years ago because it upset me.......... 

Now I am thinking I need to find a better way of dealing with the world around me - the world that doesn't necessarily play by the rules (the rules I understand) 
One step I have taken is I am starting to meditate again -- every morning.  I am going to start doing my yoga again......... I am going to find a new way of interacting with this world............ 

Life is good when you slowly start to find  your own way..........