Take 2

Soooooooo Monday I cancelled my doctor's appointment because we had freezing rain..... the only thing is .... the freezing rain stopped and didn't start again.... I could have made the appointment.  BUT I rescheduled.... checking the weather as I did it... Wednesday was forecasted to be the best day of the week........ so they booked me in late in the afternoon ..... 

(editorial note here -- the doctor's office is 45 minutes away - involves highway driving and country roads)

Last night they changed the forecast for today --- snow and ice pellets.  I figured I could handle that ........ this morning they are forecasting snow and ice pellets changing to........ wait for it............ 
freezing rain! 

I am not cancelling again........ I can do this !!  hell I am from Quebec I should be used to bad roads right??? le sigh

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answering a few comments that have been left on The Continued Journey.....

A few people have suggested we move........ because of the issues that surround this apartment.  The only thing is... the pros to staying .... out weigh the cons of moving.  AND come spring they will start work on the foundation to our home........ and put in a new deck and new everything...... it will be the cutest lil home you've ever seen - once it's done.   So we are hanging on..........  water and contractor mess ups aside....... I honestly believe in the end it will all be worth it........... 

For now ....... I will prepare myself for the drive to the doctor's....... I will dump my emotions in his office........... and hopefully come home stronger to fight the fight of withdrawals........ (oh that reminds me of another comment I had...... about how long the effects are lasting........ I have not stopped the pills yet.  I am cutting back slowly to avoid serious health problems..... so every month the withdrawal symptoms continue....... and it would seem they are becoming increasingly difficult to work through..... 

Trying

 Last night Sir Steve really stepped up to the plate to ease my stress.  He is taking time off work tomorrow so I don't have to stress over meeting the lil one at the bus.... AND he helped me empty the living room for the contractors........


This morning I left the contractors painting ('cause they decided the ripples in the ceiling weren't that bad and one can't expect perfection -- le sigh) and went to the gym.  I haven't been in 2 weeks because of weather and appointments and contractors.  It actually felt good (when I got there -- getting my butt in gear to go is another story) and I came home feeling more relaxed.  

That is until I got home........  

The landlord was parked in my parking spot....... and there was no room on the street cause of all the contractors' trucks. I walked in the house and they had finished painting YAY!!!  (at least from the kitchen it looked like they had finished -- the furniture was all put back)

BUT 

when I walked in the living room -- the small strip of wall that needed to be painted cafe au lait was painted dark grey............ WTF?!!!  I should have known there was a reason the landlord was here.  On top of that -- the sump pump that was installed by some 3rd rate plumbers in the fall had overflowed and the back half of the basement has been turned into a swimming pool again. 

Welcome stress my old friend -- I've come to talk to you again.......... (singing)

I Hurt

This morning I woke with a stiff neck and stiff muscles in my upper arms and shoulders.  I have had a small headache for days now.  I have passed grumpy and gone straight to BITCH. I feel like I can't breath..... I feel like everything is on my shoulders.... 

I feel like I haven't had any time to myself in ages........ between contractors being in the house day after day -- to the responsibility of the lil one... to trying to get my new computer to work and having problems and feeling stupid......... cold dark winter days aren't helping....... Sir Steve being under the weather (between the bug he picked up and the pain in his wrists and knees) hasn't helped either -- we haven't had any play time or sex in ages....... (ok ok it's only been 2 weeks BUT it feels like forever -- especially when I need to feel grounded ... when I need to feel like something more than a nanny/housekeeper)

the pain in my neck and shoulders is getting worse

I was supposed to go see my doctor this morning over the withdrawal crap..... my bi-monthly appointment. But we woke to freezing rain and more forecasted.... I cancelled and his nurse didn't sound happy and I felt guilty........ she rescheduled me for Wednesday (I really NEED to see the doctor to talk ya know??!!)  but it's Wednesday at 2:45 the exact time I am supposed to meet the lil one's school bus......
 At first I stamped my foot and told myself 'she isn't my daughter .... f*ck it let her father figure it out' but then I felt guilty and thought I should ask the neighbour if she can watch her...... then I felt guilty cause it's not her daughter either..... 

the pain in my neck and shoulders is getting worse

The contractors were in -- and aren't happy with the patch work on the ceiling (it is pretty bad) so they are gonna cut out the work they have done and re-do it -- which means days and days of them being in and out....... creating a mess of dust and plaster -- AGAIN!) 

The pain in my neck and shoulders is getting worse....... 

I am so tired ....... can I hand in my resignation now?

Sunday Sentiments

The Week is over........

Wanna see what I got last night -- huh ??  huh?? do ya?? !!!!

Sir Steve came home from work with my favourite Tim Hortons french vanilla coffee -- an apple fritter -  AND....................... 

the crappy week is over ... the weekend is here... life just might be looking up again.........