New Day

I am really hoping that I can take today and make it a new day - a new beginning.  

These past few weeks have been more difficult than I thought........I realize I have lost a lot of my joie de vivre - my cheekiness - my self confidence. 

My head hurts

My heart hurts

BUT I want today to be a new beginning....... I do!!  I do !!  I do !!

 

Come Visit

Slowly - very slowly - things are starting to come together.  Yesterday some good friends - who are moving in 2 months came and collected ALL the boxes and ALL the packing paper and gave me back my home!!  YAY!!  (I do hate clutter!)

At the very beginning of this new adventure - I came to the apartment - when it was clean and spotless and empty and took pictures..... I finally remembered to take before shots - so that I can have "after" shots :)

Today I thought I would take you all on a little tour round my lil home.... empty.  Then when I finally get everything into place - exactly where I want it - finally get ALL the pictures up ....... I will take "after" shots and you can see the difference

But...........

for today - it's the BEFORE shots......

 This shot is looking at the entry way 

This is the world's smallest kitchen 

 The apartment management team left me a gift basket 

This is the living room (a bit dark I know and I apologize)

with the patio doors to my balcony

 turn right around and you are looking at the dining room

from the living room you look straight down the hallway to the bedrooms and bathroom

First bedroom on your right is the spare/guest room

This is the master bedroom

one angle in the bathroom

the opposite angle showing the sink 

and last but not least - an insuite storage cupboard for all those Christmas decorations!!!

And that dear friends is my new home ........... I promise soon - sooner - soonest to be able to share with you all the finished product!!!

 

Impossible - you say!?

Meet Penelope the Piggie

"With her head-strong determination and good fortune, Penelope is the perfect depiction of overcoming impossible odds!
Her personal war against anyone using the phrase 'When pigs fly!' has brought much abundance and prosperity !"

Eldest daughter gave Penelope the Piggy to me yesterday....... 

So now I know - when everything looks bleak - that Pigs CAN fly and I will push forward without hesitation.  Seemed like a rather appropriate Sunday Sentiment - don't ya think?? 

Excited

I am beginning to see an end to this beginning............ well an end to all the boxes and mess !!  

And today - as promised - eldest daughter and her partner arrive to do all the heavy - complicated stuff - to help turn this apartment into a "home".

I feel a little bit like a kid at Christmas - which is silly I know - but this visit has been promised since I made the decision to move.  "We'll come down Mom - and hang curtains and do all the heavy stuff - don't worry we'll be there to help you"   

They shifted their schedules around - cleared the day - and they are coming!!  

It really is a special feeling to have people to support you and help you.  I am a very lucky woman - from family to the BDSM community  even here on the Journey  - folks have rallied round me and have been there for me ........ what a feeling!  it makes me all teary eyed - and I wonder what I did to deserve such friendship....

Wasn't there a bit from Sound of Music that went 
 
Nothing comes from nothing
Nothing ever could
So somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good




 

Tough Day Ahead - Updated

I am back from the test - which turned out to be minor surgery.  The news wasn't GREAT - but it wasn't bad bad either.  The cancer was back - but the doc was able to remove it in the office (can I say OUCH)... I am now on "light duties" for a couple of days (as I sit and stare at all the boxes yet to be unpacked)  AND I am back to going for tests every 3 months - instead of inching forward to once a year..............
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Today is my 6month check for cancer. Like always I am "scared shitless".

I keep thinking I don't think I could handle a reappearance of the cancer - not now - not when I am trying to stand on my own two feet - sometimes pretending I have this "living alone" under control....... but mostly feeling just a little lost and stupid and overwhelmed.

So if you could just keep me in your thoughts today - I think I could use all the positive vibes I can get.........

My mantra for today is - I CAN do this !! I can I can I can...........