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come a little closer........


we went shopping...

i got beat...

we socialized with vanilla friends..

i got beat some more...

wow!! what a spring break !!!

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come a little closer........


So far ........

needle play

sensation play

fucked into bed

Themes

A good part of the "paper work" of my job is coming up with monthly themes for programs and then coming up with activities etc that are both educational, fun, and work towards molding these children into thinking responsible adults. There are no guidelines set down by the powers who be.... it is just up to me to find them.... so pretty much anything goes.

Now some months are easy - September - back to school/team building, October is Thanksgiving and Halloween, December is Christmas/Holidays, January is generally a winter theme, February this year was easy - Olympics !! April is usually Easter/spring and June is end of year/beach theme. But there are a whole mess of months in between that are not so easy. March is one of them.

i mean other than "March comes in like a lion and goes out like a lamb" saying.. and St. Paddy's day....... March is really a blah month. Just before my Spring break i typed into google "March activities for children" just to see if something would jump start the creative juices........ and what did i find?? But a whole website dedicated to March celebrations............ and there are a mess of 'em...... From Dr. Seuss' birthday (my all time favourite author for kids !!) to earmuff day to paper money day .. to Absolutely Incredible kid day.... elevator day......... and on and on it goes............ My creative juices are all fired up and i am busy planning a Dr. Seuss birthday celebration for our PED day on March 22nd - which will be a birthday party for all the kids .............

Yesterday i was reading some of the blogs i read on a regular basis and discovered yet another "Themed Month" for bloggers. i can't help but wonder who comes up with all these themes for bloggers. i mean............ it isn't easy to come up with themes - i know !!


It turns out March is Question and Answer month............

Now i do believe i did this last year...... and got some pretty darn interesting questions to answer......... (it also helped fill a blog entry or two)

So if you have any questions you would like to ask me........... go for it !!

i promise to answer each and every one of them - silly or not - over the next few weeks........ (geeeeeez will i get enough to fill that many blog entries???!!! i am guessing no.......... but hey......... i've nothing to lose (except my self esteem) by asking right??

ok ok i know my life is pretty much an open book here......... but surely there are some questions you have been dying to ask ............ ok one question you are dying to ask??

So plop your questions in the comments box and help me fill a few blog entries for the month of March. (don't make me beg....... you won't like me when i beg.)

Half 'n Half

ok......... so i have been doing battle with some ........ ummm.. demons? Yay - that's a good word for it........ demons.

Most of the demons were brought on by winter blahs....... i absolutely hate winter!! i should have been born in a warm southern climate where i never have to face a day below 30C. But i wasn't.....i was born in the Great White North and should have adjusted by now....... but i haven't. Come end of January beginning of February i fluctuate between wanting to chew my own limbs off ........ to wanting to (and sometimes actually doing it) chewing someone's head off.

Then March arrives - like a lion or a lamb - i don't much care. First off i get a whole week off from work .......and March is.. in my mind anyway ........ the beginning of the end to another long dreary dark winter.

Two weeks ago - when i was smack dab in the deepest bit of the darkness of the winter blahs......... Sir - sitting across from me at dinner - says innocently........ "Best friend's birthday party is March 1st. I know you can't come cause you have work the next day........." and i replied - "ohhhhhhhhhh i am on break - i can come!!"

The rest of that conversation is a bit of a blur.......... but it was something about the Best Friend having this 'crush' on this woman......... and how Best Friend suggested that seeing as i couldn't go to the birthday party - Sir might bring another "date" - the date being this woman Best Friend has a crush on. (ok ok so are you all confused yet??)

My urge to chew something off came raging to the forefront. Sir ducked skillfully and just managed to save His head - though there were a few nips and scratches and bruises.

The words that kept (keep) going round in my head ...... "another date"...... HUH?? a DATE?? what does that make me ??? a casual date that can be replaced at a moment's notice??? After almost nine years i am still a DATE???

Now i realize all of this was not Sir's fault.......... He didn't suggest it.. Best Friend did.......... and i also realize that men do not see things or feel things the same way a woman does.............. and .. now this incident is really all water under the bridge..... cause i had my fit......... wrote long emotional emails to Sir... most of it emotional garbage ........ but Sir kept murmuring all the right words and eventually my blood lust subsided and things were ok ...... again.

But it conflicted badly with my belief system ...... my BDSM belief system. i am sub.... do i or don't i get a say in who Sir sees or doesn't see.. etc etc..... does the vanilla half of our life together have anything to do with the BDSM half?? and how in god's name does one separate the two???

Anyway.... i really didn't want to get into all that....... what i set out to talk about was the task Sir set for me last night while he was off at Best Friend's birthday party. (ok ok.. yes i am on March break.. and yes i could have gone..... but way back when i was in the deep end of the winter blahs..... i decided i needed to clean up some rooms around here - and i did need to !!! - and i would stay home - and yeah yeah.. a part of that rational was because i was hurt and angry with Best Friend and didn't want to have to see him never mind wish him a Happy Birthday)

So - the task.

It was to put the clamps on my pussy ........ masturbate and cum 2 times ...... and text message Sir that it was done.

In no way did i feel the least bit like masturbating last night after i had finished all the cleaning.... from waxing floors to washing clothes to washing ceiling and walls in the bathroom and finishing up the reading room...... no way no how !! For all of 2 seconds i contemplated texting Sir and saying i had done it...... "liar liar pants on fire" !!! 2 seconds......... that's all it took ......... cause i don't lie.........

So sometime after i had had my dinner and rested up... i went upstairs and found the damn clamps and the wonderful amazing spectacular hitachi with attachments... and settled down on the bed for my task.

For whatever reason i had a devil of a time getting the clamps on....... and ..... getting them to stay on......i almost .... ALMOST ....... gave in and went to find the clovers when they clamped on and stayed...... (thank god ...... cause i am not sure i am ready for the clovers !! it has been way too long)

And then i started with the hitachi....... my pussy burned hot from the clamps.. which is kinda / sorta weird.......... sorta makes my pussy feel like it feels when i am (way back when - doesn't happen anymore) so horny i am climbing the walls. Must be all the blood collecting there around the clamps.

And then it was .... off to the races so to speak. i am enjoying the vibrations from the hitachi...... really getting into it.. almost forgot the damn clamps.. until i moved..... lifted my hips slightly to get a better angle with the hitachi......... and the chain from the clamps swung ever so slightly and hit my ass..... and oh dear god !!! cum???? there has to be a better word for it.......... yeah i came....... gushing and squirting...... from the light touch of a chain tickling my ass............ i could "see" what it looked like from the bottom of the bed....... and it was HOT !! The second orgasm came quickly on the heels of the first.....

And when it was over and the clamps were off and i was lying there on the bed all hot and sweaty and drippy i thought how much better this had been ...... then sitting around a table with people who don't GET the half n'half life i live and making small talk .

Slaving.........

i have been slaving all weekend.........

ok ok that's so not true !!! But i slaved on Saturday......... and i promised to keep you all up to date with how the cleaning project was going..........

On Saturday i did indeed take all the curtains down and got them washed, ironed and back up. But the big job was tackling my reading room......... i did my usual procrastinating by sorting and tidying the shelves in the office first....... but finally i couldn't stall any longer and dragged myself into the "reading" room.

i have 3 sectional shelving units.........

Here is number 1 .. before



and after



Here is number 2 ..... before



and after



Here is number 3 .... before



and after...........



and then i gave up for the day............... but i had really good intentions of starting off fresh Sunday morning !! i did - honest i did !!

But ya see there was a train show in town (model trains) and Sir was going and He came and picked me up and took me with Him (being the good sub i am - i couldn't very well say "no" could i?? )

For those of you, new around here, you missed all the reports on building the first train layout in the basement........you can catch up reading here

and here

and here

and here

BUT beware - there are some graphic photos included.......... so don't open at work!!!

Well Sir talked about our latest plans on His blog......as well as describing some incentive He had to get me thinking about the new train layout......

yes i have plans to start an N scale layout once Sir moves the HO to His house.

Now for those of you who have no idea what an HO is or an N........in case you are interested in educating yourselves.... HO is bigger than N.........

how much bigger you ask??

This much bigger...........

this is HO

and this is N

This project however will be definitely longgggggggggg term.. little bit at a time....... and i might just go blind in the process... do you have any idea how small the flowers are in N scale??????????

Anyway that's the Monday Morning Report........... i have to run....... the "reading" room really does have to be finished.......... and then there is the bathroom i want to strip and clean - from the ceilings to the floor and everything in between.........

Sir says i am going to need a holiday from my holiday - when this is over............ BUT on Wednesday i go to Sir's house........ and i am hoping (and praying and wishing and hoping) that from Wednesday till Sunday i will be bound up and beaten and fucked until the brain doesn't function any more..........

hey a subbie can hope can't she??