7 years of loving Him

July 29th....... a day that will go down in History.......

On this day in :

1848 - Niagara Falls - Completion of first suspension bridge over the Niagara Gorge

1873 - Quebec - First party of 285 Icelandic settlers bound for 'friendly' Manitoba reach Canada

1907 - London England - Lord Baden Powell forms the Boy Scouts with assistance from Canadian financier Lord Strathcona

1981 - La Prairie, Que, Alex Baumann sets his first world swimming record in the 200 metre Individual Medley

1985 - Montreal - Jacques Lemaire resigns as coach of the Montreal Canadiens

1992 - Canadians hold Sarajevo Airport for Humanitarian Flights


AND

2001 - Sir collared morningstar

7 Years of loving Him !!!

Garden porn

This blog can't always be about smut and pain and sensual arousal or cunts for that matter.. or complaining whining subbies you know !!!

Sometimes my life looks pretty much like everyone else's... cleaning... laundry... ironing... garbage... all the really fun stuff ........... ughhhhhhhhhhh...

BUT for those of you who are new around here.. i do love my gardens... my secret hideaway from all the pressures and stupidities of the world.. where i curl up under the big green umbrella on my wicker love seat.. with my books and read.. and listen to the squirrels playing and blue birds singing and the cardinals chattering (yes they chatter !!! especially when my cats are outside with me!!)

i even enjoy the work involved to keep the gardens looking their best...i do not however look my best when working in the garden.. no strappy sandals - but more functional shoes - yellow duckies and cuffs...


OHHHHH and to give credit where credit is due.. kat way out there in Friendly Manitoba did a blog about her garden .. and it made me realize i hadn't updated mine this summer.......... thanks for the gentle reminder kat !!!

something evil this way comes

Evil is always dark and scary......... right??

Can you make out the evil stick in the above picture???

That is pure evil...

i will put that stick up against any other toy known to man and see if you don't agree it is evil..

i will put my ass up against any one's ass with THAT evil stick and see if you don't agree..

It is evil - pure evil.

In fact... i believe it has magical properties...
For weeks / months even Sir hasn't gone near it........ last weekend Sir complained to me that He had not seen the "new" stick as He calls it (He doesn't know of it's evil properties.. only i truly know.. only i truly see it for what it is - E V I L )

Anyway.. i realized i hadn't seen the evil being for a while and went looking for it.. i found it.. hanging on the toy wall - innocently - with all the other toys.......

BUT you see .. this evil stick changes .. fits in to its environment...... and so Sir missed it..

i recognized it by the silver handle......... and being the good sub i am .. i reported back to Sir where the stick was..........

Yesterday Sir went and brought the evil stick upstairs..

Sir had me bend over the ottoman..

And Sir used that evil wicked nasty stick on my ass.. and on my sweet spot...

The pain that comes from this stick is nothing if not evil....... for 30 minutes Sir used that stick over and over on my ass and sweet spot.. and all i could feel was burning pain... there were no fairies.. there were no pretty lights.. there was nothing except that darkness that surrounds Evil............

DARKNESS i say !!!!

Finally Sir asked if i wanted it to end.......

i cried (damn that is all i seem to do these days)

i begged Him not to stop... i needed the endorphins.. even though they weren't appearing.. that evil stick doesn't seem to allow fairies or pretty lights or endorphins........

Thank god Sir went to the crop.. both crops.. Thank god Sir brought me up to the edge.. showed me the fun just over the edge.. and i stepped out.... and over..

ohhhhhh the evil stick came back to play .. for a little bit.... and i earned a good fucking and a marvelous soaking dripping flowing orgasm - for enduring the evil stick.......

And funny enough .. when i looked at the evil stick again.... afterwards... it was playing tricks again... not dark and evil.. but more sunshine ... lollipops and rainbows.......

done to death

i do believe i have done "cunts" to death.. and yeah yeah i know i only did 2 posts - but it seems to be one more post than was needed.. i should have stuck with my original proclamation of "Celebrate Cunt Day"

Though... to be honest... there appears to be a whole mess of folks out there that want to read about cunts cause my numbers went through the roof the last couple of days... or maybe it was just the juicy pictures i posted of cunts that brought in the readership..... who knows??

i do know though that now cunt day / week is over around here the numbers will go back down.. and thank the lord for that !!! The responsibility of keeping that many people entertained.. amused and aroused was getting to me !!!

So on to more mundane things.... like geez i have to clean the house today rather than spend my day drooling over naked cunts.. (oooooops right i wasn't gonna mention cunts today)

Yeah i have to clean - which explains why i am on here rambling about nothing much at all.. i don't much like cleaning.. though i do like it cleaned.. (ok ok this is sounding more and more like a summer rerun)

i have been thinking about stuff recently...... a whole mess of stuff.. mostly work based.. which probably means "my" summer vacation is drawing to a close - 3 more weeks then back i go.......



swan, Buffalo and i have talked more than once about friendships.. especially on line friendships and how the word "friend" is bandied about..... what makes a friend?? Does it happen overnight?? ever had someone walk into your life and you just know that person is gonna be your friend forever???

Lucky you.

i am not like that.. not even close.. i am selfish and eccentric - i like my alone time... i like my space. i am verging on being reclusive and i know it.. and i embrace it.. it is a choice i make. i am pretty damn sure when the day finally comes that i can retire.. i will be the happiest person on earth - because i can come home .. close the door.. and be by myself.

i have thought about this for some time now.. why is it i don't feel the need to have people around me.. have friends calling .. going out for coffee and dinner and social events with friends?? Maybe the reason is i spend much of my year surrounded by people.. chattering, nagging, crying, whining, begging, pouting people....... and it exhausts me.

Twenty some years ago when i first started out in the public school system.. i had a principal who was doing the yearly evaluation ... and i got high marks on everything except one thing......... diplomacy. He and i talked about that a lot.. and yeah i have improved vastly with my diplomacy skills - otherwise i probably wouldn't be doing the job i do today.......... BUT........ inside?? i am so not diplomatic. You beat your kid?? well stop it damn it.. just stop it.. You are the adult You make the choices .. so stop it !!! (i wouldn't get very far with that attitude would i?? )

Anyway.. getting back to friends.. they take work ..and i am lazy.. i don't like talking on the phone unless there is something to say.. i don't like writing emails for much the same reason.. i have something to say and you need to hear it.. i will write or call...

A friend for me is someone who knows all my faults and likes me because of them... and despite of them. A friend for me is someone who understands my reclusive nature and accepts it.. A friend for me is someone i can turn to when i really need to talk and know they will be there.. much the same as if they really needed to talk i would be there.. but all the crap in between?? not my style...

And so it is that i do not have a lot of friends.. i could probably count them on .. ummm.. 2 fingers.

Today i am asking myself why i feel the need to apologize for not having masses of friends or welcoming masses of people as my friend...... these web sites that allow you to add a friend........ add a friend?? half the people who make that request of me i don't even know !!! geeeeez.. couldn't they find a better term than 'friend'??

Someone told me the other day that i was fun.. care free.. self confident.. and i honestly wondered who they were describing... cause you know what?? that just isn't me. Oh i can be a damn good hostess when i need to be.. i can laugh and play with the best of them.. and then can't wait to run home .. close the door.. and shut the world out.

i want / need to set the record straight here.. i am just like everyone else out there.. i have my doubts.. my insecurities.. my 'baggage'.. my crap from childhood.. just like everyone else....... BUT i made a deal with myself a long long time ago that i was gonna be this tough old bird....... who faced life head on.. cause i learned at a really young age.. ain't no one gonna be there forever for you....... only you......... so you had better become best friends with yourself.

And so i became my best friend........... and (you gotta know this one is coming) my cunt is my best friend too.. we share so much together... intimate moments with the vibrator that no one else can equal (well ok ok.. Sir can not only equal it but surpass it - but that doesn't count) i once told my daughter to forget about men pleasing her sexually - she should learn to please herself first.. get to know her cunt !!! i did.. and it was the best damn friend i ever made.......

And now for sure. .cunt week is done to death...... for me.........

cunts part 2 - graphic content !!

i honestly hadn't expected to be talking about cunts again today....... though it does seem to be the topic of conversation around the blogger world this week....... so in keeping with kaya’s declaration of this being Cunt Week... and swan’s interesting discussion on fisting.... AND because Sir dropped by yesterday with a diabolic plan....... let's do "cunts part 2"








Ok .. my own personal dilemma actually started when i read swan's blog about fisting....... i have never ever been able to be fisted - something i long for........ so i posted the question 'is it possible that a woman can be too small to be fisted?'.....and had a wonderful response from swan and kaya........ something to mull over so to speak.

Then........... Sir dropped by for dinner (before heading off to a meeting) and as my ass muscle is still a bit achy .. He decided that a good fucking was in order rather than another whooping. Now... not to go into personal TMI stuff.. suffice it to say that Sir decided to go and find Willy - my dildo. (now personally i prefer a nice vibrator - but Sir was going for the dildo - so who am i to argue with a plan??!!)

AND it has been a very VERY long time since Willy was shoved into my cunt.. gracefully or ungracefully. Today was an ungraceful day.. it was a bend over .. spread your legs.. in it goes day. Only thing was it hurt... it hurt something awful.. it felt as though i was virgin again.. the damn thing also felt like it was gonna push right out my belly button !! (trust me not a particularly nice feeling)

i wiggled ... i adjusted.. i pleaded for mercy.. for time to breath.. i begged for it to be taken out........

Sir took it out long enough to ram it right back in........ out and in .. in and out.. i was dripping wet but the damn thing was still banging against the cervix trying its damnedest to come out the belly button. It took some.... ummmm.. how shall i put this.. twiddling on Sir's part.. for me to relax enough to actually enjoy being fucked by Willy......... and yeah i had two mind blowing orgasms.........

Once it was over.. Willie was set in a place of honour on Sir's table - for me to look at.. no matter how hard i tried not to look at it. (It just seems weird to have a penis sitting straight up in the middle of the living room). i made a joke or two about feeling like a virgin.. especially when i went to pee ......... god it hurt .. and god my cunt was stretched !!!

And so after Sir went to His meeting.. i decided i needed to learn a little something about cunts....

so i googled cunt....... and got all sorts of comforting information.... starting with:

the average cunt (but they used vagina) is 3 - 4 inches from tip to cervix when it is not sexually aroused. However during arousal blood flows to the area and causes the upper two thirds to lengthen by forcing the cervix and the uterus to ascend.

Then it went on to say that a cunt is much like a balloon with no air in it.. closed tight.. but add air and it will swell and grow........ (air being the sexual arousal and blood flow - not actually air !!!)

So that has left me thinking that maybe i can really truly be fisted....... i just need to be so damn horny that my cunt is pounding with all that blood flow.... and maybe it would help if i was also flying high with my fairies and not tensed up.. and probably would help if Sir used a fair amount of lube.......... but hey........ who knows maybe there is hope for me yet??!!

And while we are on the subject of arousing cunts........ wouldn't this be something to brag about taking??


i think THAT brute may even beat kaya's candle hands down !!!