Done!

Well my little bathroom in the basement is sparkling clean....... finally.  And I am pleased to report they weren't spider webs hanging hauntingly from everything.. but they were actually just dust webs.

It only took about 2 1/2 hours to have it up to my standards....... and there were only two spots I had to have drakor do over.  Not bad at all.  It was very obvious he was determined to work hard and please me.  And he succeeded on all accounts.

To add a little spice - well actually I called it 'incentive' - I applied clover clamps ... so that every time he moved or bent over they would swing and tug on his nipples.  (It is one advantage of actually knowing what something will do when applied to the body) I apologize for the shadow ........ 

I am known to block the flash with my hand..... definitely something I have to work on 


Then when W came over for coffee I had drakor serve the brownies....... but honestly I didn't want to make it too easy for him...... and as I no longer have any rope... I opted for bondage tape to give this part of service just a little challenge. 

I think that drakor may want to wear bondage tape more often......... it makes his rather small 'assets' look bigger....

And if anyone is interested...... while drakor was working in the basement - I worked in the front garden and got some bushes trimmed back and the gardens weeded...... this had the added advantage that every time drakor had to ask me something he had to come to the front door...... I am hoping it gave him just a tiny thrill wondering if someone would walk by and spot him in his cute lil thong

All in all it was a good day....... one worth repeating I think.

RSVPing

The other day I made an off hand cheeky  comment about how clean my house is....... and it is ......... for the most part.

BUT ..........

I have a bathroom downstairs in the basement.  A bathroom that had been locked and inaccessible when W had his train setup in the basement.  A bathroom that has not been cleaned for years.......... YEARS!! 

When the train set got moved back to W's last spring..... I opened the door and nearly died - the spider webs were thick - just like in some horror film.  You had to brush them apart to even enter the room.  It was disgusting.

Now being the clean freak I am - you'd think I would have been in there with javel and rubber gloves scrubbing it from top to bottom.

You'd be wrong.

I just couldn't face the cobwebs - the dirt - and the fact the toilet never worked properly in there anyway.

So I closed the door on the dirt and webs and ......just let it go.

It has been another year of spiders spinning and dirt collecting.........

And then drakor invited dominants in the area to use his services for a 2 day period on his blog. 

I thought about it for a few days....... discussed it with W....... then emailed drakor to get some specifics. 

He is coming tomorrow to clean the downstairs bathroom - in slave mode.  (yeah yeah I can hear my frequent readers saying "oh no here we go again"! For those of you not in the know - so to speak - I did try domming drakor a few years back.  Let's just say it didn't turn out as well as any of us had hoped)

But I am thinking this is a bit different......... this isn't really for him........ I am just accepting his offer of service for 2 days (hopefully it won't take that long to get the bathroom cleaned) AND I certainly know what I want from him as far as cleaning goes. 

So all I have to do is add a little twist or two to make him feel in slave mode...... and I get a clean (and hopefully working) bathroom again! 

The only drawback I see - is what the hell do I DO while he is slaving away naked in the basement........ hopefully the sun will be out - then I think I will busy myself in the gardens.  Slaves really should be ignored - except when it is white glove inspection time........ right??

A Session

i know that i talk a lot - especially on Mondays - about the weekend sessions.... i don't get a lot of feed back - but according to my counter - i do get a lot of hits on Mondays ............ This Monday isn't going to be much different........ talk about a session..........

What is different though is how i processed this session............

After the pins and needles session Saturday afternoon... on Saturday evening...... Sir gave me a flogging session.... ( i never really know what to call them as He doesn't always use floggers - but you get the idea)....

i was ordered over the ottoman and Sir started with the crop....... my mindset was just weird........ i was so quiet inside.. so quiet it was like i was dead...

Sir started off slowly - really nicely........ and sped up pretty damn quickly...... i was holding my head in my hands and had all these really weird / strange / wonderful / sick ideas running through my addled brain.........

First off ..... i realized that Sir wasn't hurting me.. not even a little bit.. didn't matter how hard He was hitting.. or what He was using to hit.. it just wasn't registering as pain........ i had been .. stressed and upset .. during the week.. and it was like all those negative feelings had piled up in my gut and were hurting me more than Sir was........ in some weird / strange / sick way.. i wanted Sir to hurt me more than i was hurting inside........

Then i realized i wanted Sir to bruise me.. i wanted it more than anything on earth..... and i have been harbouring this secret belief that if i didn't move.. if i didn't make a sound to alter Sir's perception of how the session was going that He would hit harder and longer and some how or other i would be bruised...... even through a brutal paddling with the big wooden paddle i didn't utter a sound.. i did collapse a couple of times from the sheer force of the hit...... but i went right back into position and let Sir go on with it............

And then .. i realized that if Sir kept hitting me harder and harder and longer and longer that it meant He truly loved me (now i have to say this right now...... i KNOW Sir loves me.. just sometimes i need physical proof of the depth of His love - can He hurt me enough to show me He loves me - sort of thing and yeah yeah i know that probably sounds REALLY sick to some of you......... but others who have claimed love couldn't give me the pain my body and mind craves once they had declared their love)



At the end of it.. i wasn't flying.. i was a bit dizzy... and a bit weepy..... my ass hurt more than words can describe........ i went really deep inside of myself..and couldn't / wouldn't talk about anything....... i finally gave up trying to be good company and went off to bed......

Sunday morning i almost couldn't wait to check my ass out in the mirror.. could i possibly be bruised?????? my ass was still hurting something awful....... way more than i ever thought possible...........

i looked..

i checked right and left

and there wasn't one mark.

and i cried.

Actually i did a lot of crying on Sunday...... and Sir was there to hold me and rock me and whisper all the right words in my ear............

i do though have a sore muscle .. a really sore muscle... that runs from mid ass check almost straight down to the sweet spot under the ass cheek.. no mark .. but damn does that muscle hurt !!!!!

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A small announcement.......

i know some of you have read with interest my dabbling in domming on the Yes Miss blog. On Sunday afternoon baby boy came over for a visit - and after a long chat i released him. i am not a domme.. not even a little bit of one........ deep inside. Oh i can do all the right things... i can spank and i can crop and i can do CBT.. and i discovered i can even humiliate.. but it never really felt right .. inside.. where it counts.

So the Yes Miss Blog has gone the way of the dodo bird and the dinosaurs and all other extinct beings.

There will only be one Dominant in this house from now on ....... and that is Sir.

This and that....

Well i have pulled the house back together.. changing this and that.. adding more oriental influence on the main level - have i told you i love the oriental influence??!!

After 4 days of painting - and ignoring all the other work that needs to be done.. today i am doing the usual cleaning lady routine........ ughhhhhhhh a woman's work is never done !!

i have been struggling all week with sleep....... usually my head hits the pillow and i am gone.. it is a quality of mine that drives Sir nuts !!! and usually i wake up automatically after 7 - 8 hours. My grandmother always used to say - clear conscience - good night's sleep. But this week i haven't been sleeping well...... so does that mean i don't have a clear conscience??? i was wondering about that the other day........ i did a little mental health check and declared myself clean and fit...... so why wasn't i sleeping?? Then - just like in the cartoons - a light bulb went off over my head.......... i wasn't locking the cats up at night.. i love to have lil miss ashes snuggle up behind me and sleep with me......... but squirt the male does not sleep.. left to his own devices he roams the house - prowls is more like it - my attack cat on guard. So i penned the "kids" back up et voila 8 hours sleep !!! Still got my clear conscience - thank goodness !!

My legs ache today........ ache from the ankles to the knees ........ just like when you stand for too long.. or walk too far (in the wrong shoes) ... and nothing seems to help... not Tylenol or sitting.. or laying down.. or elevating them.. or standing.. they just ache (much like a tooth ache ) and it is driving me nuts !!! i wonder if i strained too many muscles hopping up and down the ladder.. standing on tippy toes to paint the upper most part of the wall that i missed when i was on the ladder (hey i never said i was an accomplished painter with any kind of strategy !!)

And i am on my 5th day of my white chemicals - 5th day of the 3rd month - one more month to go. i am fatigued and a bit nauseous and wondering if all these side effects have been worth it... is the problem being healed?? i HATE not knowing.

And as i sit here writing ........ i hear the plows moving snow banks....... (making a bloody mess of the grass and the bushes/gardens) preparing for the next big dump of snow due to start tonight and end sometime on Sunday - another foot or so......... we are clearly running out of place to put all this white stuff !!! BUT we do put the clocks ahead on Saturday night.. more daylight .. YAY !!! and hopefully it means spring IS just around the corner.

On another bright note....... we have had some success (hopefully) in our search for a new 'boy'......... i have posted more details on Yes Miss. And Sir has a sweet young thing that has been over to the condo once for a little spanking...... and we are hoping she will return again soon......... but i promised her i would write no details....... so that is all i am saying on the subject!!

And that dear readers is it for today....... the vacuum is calling my name.... and god after a week of painting.. my body needs some serious shaving and prepping.. it is Friday and Sir is coming !!!!!!

Announcement

This is gonna be short and sweet.......

i have added a new blog to my list of writing endeavors - Yes Miss

It is a blog about our search for a new submissive - the ups, the downs, the challenges and should we find someone it will be where we record the events.

And in case anyone is confused .. i have no intention of being either a switch OR a dominant...... Sir says i will be "alpha sub" .. there is only room for one Dominant in this household........