Ambivalent

I have been musing - a little by myself and a little with mini me about BDSM and me -- or her depending on who's doing the musing -- and I realized I am basically ambivalent for the most part.

Then last night I was out at this educational event - surrounded by toys - mountains of toys - all sorts of toys. I sorta/kinda took my "bdsm pulse" and got a low reading.... 

Then I heard two words - just two - "tomorrow night" and that pulse I had been checking went up a notch or two.

Maybe I am not as ambivalent as I thought...............