I was busy this weekend - which involved a lot of driving. Friday night went to visit some friends and spent the night so I didn't have to drive at night - but did put almost 3 hours of driving in back and forth.
Saturday a dear friend needed me and I was there ...... there are times in your life when you are needed and you just go - cause that's where you need to be........
Sunday I was back in the car driving to Montreal for middle grandson's birthday. Another long drive - there and back 5 hours. (and we all know how much I love -- NOT -- long drives)
Driving home last night I realized just how alone it feels to be driving alone in the dark... it's almost scary.......... In all the weeks/months that have passed since my life started to unravel .. I have to admit last night was almost a little too much alone-ness for me to handle.
I drive a lot on my own - always have - and very long distances at time. For me, it provides a time of peace for introspection and thought. I find life is so damn busy between work, home, my mother, etc that there is seldom time for me to 'de-stress' - long drives can provide that break. I like road trips- probably becuase I grew up with them - my dad was a great driver and loved to drive to places- exploring as we went. When we first came to Canada, I remember driving from Quebec right through to Newfoundland and back again- many trips in the States. When we moved to Freeport (Grand Bahamas) we drove from Quebec right through the States until we hit Miami. I continued the traiditon in my teens and 20s and Doug and I, before kids, would often just take off on a Friday after work and wander - me driving as he only got his driver's license when we had Maeve (he was 36!)- I "commute" to Montreal and back again every month (and more in the past 18 months - although thankfully back to monthly trips now)- often at night - I love that black tunnel with the light ahead, swishing through the quiet and the hush of a highway ribbon....
ReplyDeleteselkie - obviously you are not afraid of the dark and the monsters that hide in the darkest corners (grinning)
ReplyDeleteSeriously though - this drive was more worrisome for me - I always fear a break down - and this time -- for some stupid reason -- I had left my cell at home and spent the trip fussing about having a break down........ some days I am not happy if I am not fussing it would seem :(